kashif_nazeer
~~~Alhamdulillah~~~
Just one week since Ramadan finished and ifind myself sinking back into depression
during Ramadan itried to stay calm to focus on fasting prayer reading quran,,,but now ifind it hard to keep[ calm
in the last years many things happend which have shaken my life and eomtionally deeply affected me ,and my health issuffering too,im stressed ,dont sleep,often get sick,,,
some things happpened to me ,others peoples actions which affected my life,other things my own fault,my own mistakes which affected me deeply
now ifind myself sitll sinking into periods of deep depression sadness confusion
i have dealt wiht many of the issues,,,but istill feel i have lost my way in this world,sometimes idont know myself and dont know how to live my life
i joined this site,becasue i really need a place like this,as my faith has also weakened in this time
but at the same time...when i see some of the brothers and sisters here ..it makes mere reliase my weaknesses,,,ifeel ashamed..i have been a\revert for 20 years..but some here new reverts or for short time have such strong faith are so commited and trying with such effort to lead a good life
sometimes ijust feel like a failure
asometimes ifeel icant continue living where iam and the way iam
i live in an islamiccountry,,,i have a family hamdilla....
but at same time ifeel so lost
and feel im in a crossroads in my life
...........................................dont know what to do
:salam2:
Sister seek help in sabr and salat.Prayer and patience,it is the formula for all sorts of problems.It happens with all of us fluctuations of iman,there are highs then there are lows.That is life."Verily with hardship ,there is a relief."
Never despair sister,because that is what shaytaan wants us to do,to despair and to fall into depression.It's because he ids far removed from Allah's mercy and forgiveness so he accursed one wants us to despair of Allah's mercy too.
Always be conscious that Allah is near to us,nearer than our juglar vein and hears us.His names are Ar-Rahman(The Most Gacious) and Ar-Raheem(The Most Merciful) the one softer than the other.He created womb and gave it a name after His name calling it 'rahm'.Allah's mercy is similarly covering us from all sides,protecting us ,caring for us and nurturing us through this life.Why despair when we have such a caring and loving Allah nearer to us than our juglar veins ALWAYS.
Whenever we feel no one is listening to us know that Allah is listening to us He is As-Sami(Th Hearer).
When we feel no one sees how we are know that Allah sees for Allah is Al Baseer(The All Seer).
When we feel that no one knows about our condition we should remember that Allah is Al Aleem(The All Knowing)
When we feel no one is aware how we feel,we should remember that Allah is Al Khabir(The All-Aware)
When we feel no one cares remember that Allah is Al Wadud(the Most Loving) and A Raheem(The Extremely Merciful)
Be strong sister and hold firmly to Allah's rope(Qur'an).Attach your heart to Qur'an when you do that you will see all your worries and depression alleviate from you.Do not let go of it for a moment,the heart which holds Qur'an ,no worry or problem can affect it.In the Qur'an lies the healing of hearts and peace and calmness for the believer ,it is the best medicine for heart.
Sister when you feel alone and depressed remember this saying of Sheikhul Islam Ibn Taymiyyah who was in prison when he said:
What can my enemies do to me? I have in my breast both my heaven and my garden. If I travel they are with me, never leaving me. Imprisonment for me is a chance to be alone with my Lord. To be killed is martyrdom and to be exiled from my land is a spiritual journey. (Ibn al-Qayyim, Waabil, p.69)
All of us live in some sort of prison physical or non physical ,it is Allah's words and His remembrance that can make us feel free always.When Allah is with us,we are never alone.
Also I would suggest you read this du'a,it's one of my favourites:
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Cry your worries to Allah alone,whenevr you feel you can,like you said you cannot sleep,try crying to Allah your worries alone in the silent of midnight.You will experience peace,tranquility and calmness inshaAllah that will wash your worries away.
May Allah ease your affairs for you.Ameen.