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Sister, your post touched my heart very much - even though I am very much younger than you, I too, have been praying and praying for things, and yet sometimes I get so depressed because I don't see any results of my prayers, and then I look at others who seem to have anything they want from this world, even though they don't really pray that much etc. It saddens me, but then I think, Allah SWT has blessed me with this because its for my very best. Maybe its a trial or a test, or maybe its just this way because its good for me - also, verily, this world is a prison for the believers.
A friend once explained to me different situations - when we die, what use is having wealth, or a husband? The wealth will go to someone else, the husband will probably remarry etc. I'm not belittling your concerns, because they are like mine as well - all my friends are happily married and they have such cute little children, so I understand your worries. But I'm trying to make you see, is that its for our best - one thing I've learned is that just being married for the sake of being married is worse. Would you rather stay married to a person who does not follow Islam and does not adhere to its rules? Trust me ukhti, its not worth it - I've thought about this a lot, and I'm sure, between not being married, and being married to an unreligious person you would choose the first option. At least this way, you can be secure in your deen, and not have daily temptations and hurts. Wouldn't it hurt to have a husband who doesn't even pray 5 times a day! Maybe Allah is protecting you and your deen. Verily, Allah will provide and look after you.
Sister, are you absolutely alone? Don't you have family to take care of you, anyone at all? Remember, Allah is always with you - and how beautiful your heart and soul must be, having Him as your best companion.
I understand its lonely, I understand its painful and difficult. But I think sometimes all we want is for someone to say to us - "you're not alone, and you're doing a good job at being steadfast and being patient, so just hang in there, trust in Allah and things will be okay." So I'm saying these things to you, dear ukhti, and I will pray that Allah end your trial and grant you with what your heart desires. Don't be depressed okay.