Assalam U Aleykum sister,
i've read other replies and the advice given will benefit me as well , so Jazak Allah
i just wanted to say that this post really gave me motivation ; to tell the truth , i'm suffering from exactly the same problem, and it upsets me, disturbs me and the ultime point is that i feel soo bad , it seems i'm so waek that sheytan can play with me, my soul and my thoughts , and he can take advantage from my weakness ; that's what i feel
this site has helped each of its members and i'm so thankfull to Allah SWT
the things that helped me are:
first of all reading quran with translation , and before reading it, taking one minute to check my heart and think why i'm reading it, what is the purpose , and making the firm will that evenif sheytan will try to distract me during the time i'm listening to Quran, i'll reject it as if i reject an ennemy ;
someone said here that "only true rememberence of Allah can give innner peace in your heart" i try to remember this unique and simple sentence all the time, and i try to apply this
ok, sheytan is intelligent in the way he know the weaknesses of each of us and try to mislead us through these weaknesses but i remember all the time that sheytan is an ennemy, an open ennemy and Allah SWT says in the Quran that we should alawys fight against sheytan ,
and even shytan is powerfull in the way that he can mislead us, Allah SWT is The Most Powerfull, He created all of us , all mankind, every living and non living thing, and if we rely on Him sheytan can't do anything
i try to be aware of the fact that beeing muslim is a true gift from allah SWT; it's like a ticket given to me, even if i didn't deserve it; i should take care of this precious ticket which is the ticket ultimately to paradise if i behave good;
there is also another thing that helps me to fight against these stupid thoughts and feelings is that see, see how big the world is, how many peaople are living there, some are suffering, some are enjoying, some are old, some are newly born , some are dying and i'm here , at home trying to fight something in my heart and it's like i'm here in my little corner trying to fight against something which is wasting my time, trying to burning the good deeds i earned so hardly , and one day 'ill die, nobody will remember me , nobody will really pray for me, and i'll be in my grave, and if sheytan succeeds , i'll be suffering forever and ever, and i don't want my enemy to win over me, and i wan't to coolect enough deeds for myself because i know nobldy else will offer me his/her good deeds so it's my risponsabilty
i try to remember death every minute, every time,
concering salat, i think that salat is a big gift and way for me to get closer to my Lord if i perform it correclty, so it means i should understand the meanings, and if Allah SWt has prescribed me Salat, it is to give me serenity , and it is a benefitial thing, so why should i waste this blessed moment by thinking of something else? sometimes it's strange and wierd i know but before something comes i say stop; Life is to worship Allah SWT but he the Most Mercifull wants us to Worship Him in the easiest way, not to stuggle with sheytan , and i should adopt this easy way ; which will make my life and my hereafter easier and if i find t sometimes difficutl to apply the commendments of Allah SWT and for instance get up early , i know one day my soul will be thankfull ; i'll be thankfull ; my body needs wordly things because it is made of earth, but my soul is someting which i reality needs rememberence to Allah SWT; so if i can satisfy my worldy needs , it' s my job to satisfy my soul with tru rememberance of Allah SWT
i try to think every moring when i wake up that , thanks Allah SWT, thanks a lot you gave me another day to erase my mistakes, and make a new day which will be better than yesterday with Your help, my Lord
so i should take this opportunity
i think how lucky i am as a human beeing, every thing that Allah SWT Created does tasbih, the trees, animals, every thing, but the trees have limited poosibilites , they are standing in the same place all the day, they can't move, they can just make tasbih of their Lord,
the animals, they can do more things but they don't have this awareness , this as developped brain as us, they don't have a soul and when they'll die, nothing will remain ,
so we have the ability to move, to live, to think , better than every other creature, so it's a true gift, and we should be thankfull to Allah SWT and not be distracted my the little things that disturb us in a corner of our heart, we should forget them and work on our risponsibility on earth, we are ambassadors , as creatures we have to show all the good things Allah SWt put in our minds like morality, the ability to be patient, to control ourselves, we can admire the rest of the creation of Allah ; the msot important thing is that we have a Guide, Our Prophet Muhammad SAW, if we follow him nothing will happen to us
plus Allah SWT Created us pure so it's our job to remain pure; we can't go back to Our Lord with bad clothes on us and a untidy heart to present; it should be not as pure but at least pure enough to satisfy our Lord , pure enough to show Him that Allah SWt , see you gave me all these possibilites and i took good care of them and i return them to you because every thing is Yours as You created them; and in fact the hole world, our hole planet in the begiing was like a big clean and pure house given from Allah SWT to us to live and worship him; so i should be carefull not only to don' harm myself with bad deeds but also not to harm everthing around me ;
finally , the first thing you can do is to learn and understand each of the names of Allah SWT and rely and trust on Him, he is your creator
these are the few ways i use to protect myself , and to open my eyes, but this thing has to be done constantly, there is no rest, at least for me, because i forget even one second, sheytan will porfit and enter my heart with bad thoughts,
the thing i remember as well is that look, when i have a bad feeling due to sheytan i feel bad all the day and i have to be even more and more aware, i gain nothing except worry and dislikeness of myself while when i think of Allah SWT i have this feeling, undescriptible, and i wish i could stop the time at this moment and feel like that forever, so it gives me motivation to acheive this thing in my heart, the only thing that gives me peace
sorry for beeing too long, but this issue is really serious for me because the more i want to come closer to my religion the more i find difficulties and the more sheytan tries to disturb me; and i take this very seriously ; i hope with this long post of mine, you'll feel better, even if this post is directed at myself first , and a reminder on what i should do myself and when i think of that , i think that Allah SWT has helped me a lot and Alhamdullilah i've improved and i'm stronger Alhaldullilah even if there is a loooot more to do
:wassalam:
before going just two sentences that i already mentionned but that are helping me really:
"only true rememberence of Allah SWT gives inner peace to heart"
"bad deeds harm me, my sould , my mind, and who would want to harm himself other than ignorant people, and what do i gain by harming me? nothing"
and Allah SWT has created sheytan to test us, if we are sincere in our faith and strong enough, but he Has given us the ability to fight against it and most imoortanly to SUCCEED in this fight and our weapons are Quran and sunnah; there are blessed people in this world who are already that strong that sheytan doesn't even dare disturbing them, but we also have the ability to be strong and fight, we have this immune system that we have to buodl ourselves and which becomes stronger by remembering Allah SWT; it's like a serum to protect us;
and i think that when i get a maths work for instance, and i don't manage to do it while other have already finished; what do i think? i think if the professor gave it to us it's that we are able to solve the problem, plus if i try hard, i always manage to solve it by myself and what do i feel? an extreme joy and hapiness that the others to solved the thing easily may have never experienced while i did my homework and i felt something really good which will help me for the next works.... it's alike that when i succeed against sheytan i feel this joy and i'm ready for all the other tests in future ....
:wassalam:
