italianmuslimah
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Assalamu alaikum to everyone!
I only recently came across this website..it's really great and i'm so happy to be able to introduce myself as a muslim and read other revert stories, it definately gives me a lot of comfort and encouragment to see how other people are dealing with some of the common difficulties faced by muslim reverts. In fact if it wasn't for the internet and websites such as these i really wouldn't know where to turn!
I took my Shahada 5 months ago now..alhamdulilah...the more i read and learn about Islam (even though it's still very little) the happier i become with my decision and reconfirm to myself that i believe it's the truth and the right path. Unforunately though i am struggling quite a bit and feel quite weak and alone at the moment...
the main difficulty is that i live with my mum right now and she is quite a strict catholic..i haven't told her yet and don't feel ready to at all...not only would she be so upset that i have rejected the faith she brought me up in but unfortunately she is also strongly anti-islam and holds lots of negative views about the religion. I already know she would say that i've been brainwashed and would get my whole family onto me and the local priest etc to try and change my mind. It's not that i’m a coward i know i will have to tell her eventually but i don't feel like i have enough knowledge yet to explain things to her properly and try to change her opinions. I would prefer to wait until i am practicing properly so that i can show her that i am happy with my choice and that i haven't joined some strange cult,lol..
the second thing is that i'm living in a small seaside town in Italy...i have never seen a muslim here and there is no mosque nearby either so i literally have no network of support and nowhere to meet muslims or get help to learn prayer etc (this is why i emphasised how great it is to have internet access and sites like this, thank you!)
I'm actually thinking of moving back to the UK as i grew up there and my dad lives there. It will be really hard for me as i'm very close to mum and my sister and niece live here as well, but i'm starting to realise that not having a muslim community nearby makes things so much harder and i'm scared of getting sidetracked and not being able to practice here...
these days i've been spending a lot of time on the internet and have been learning a lot from sites like these...i was working all summer and i didnt really have time for it but a couple of months ago i was involved in quite a bad accident..i was knocked off my scooter by a car and rushed to hospital with a bad head injury...i fell unconscious and woke up in a daze in the ambulance and all i could hear were sirens and the paramedics saying how much blood there was...i was so scared i actually thought i might die...i couldn't really think straight but i just kept saying please Allah forgive me, forgive me...i was so scared that if i died i would be in really bad sin for not saying my prayers or doing enough to learn more about Islam...
well Alhamdulilah i came out of it with no permanent injuries at all and while i was in hospital the doctors actually found a large cyst attached to my spleen (not caused by the accident) which needs to be removed as it could burst and i had no pain there so they said i might have never found out that it was there...
now i'm waiting to have the operation but as soon as i recover inshAllah i'm gonna try and move..even if its somewhere else in Italy where there's a mosque and muslim community...i think this will be the best thing to do
everyday i'm so much more conscious of death and how we never know when it's our time and i thank Allah everyday for the fact that i'm still here and although at the moment i'm probably the world's worst muslim lol as i still don't know my prayers but i know that i love Allah and Islam and i want to become a good muslim more than anything...
sorry this was so long..i hope noone falls asleep reading this, lol
please pray for me..i feel really scared about being led astray from Islam..i don't want that to happen!
i look forward to reading more stories on this website and i just want to say that reading the replies and advice to people just shows how caring, understanding and helpful muslims are to one another..just like brothers and sisters which is how it should be!
take care everybody
Allah Hafiz
I only recently came across this website..it's really great and i'm so happy to be able to introduce myself as a muslim and read other revert stories, it definately gives me a lot of comfort and encouragment to see how other people are dealing with some of the common difficulties faced by muslim reverts. In fact if it wasn't for the internet and websites such as these i really wouldn't know where to turn!
I took my Shahada 5 months ago now..alhamdulilah...the more i read and learn about Islam (even though it's still very little) the happier i become with my decision and reconfirm to myself that i believe it's the truth and the right path. Unforunately though i am struggling quite a bit and feel quite weak and alone at the moment...
the main difficulty is that i live with my mum right now and she is quite a strict catholic..i haven't told her yet and don't feel ready to at all...not only would she be so upset that i have rejected the faith she brought me up in but unfortunately she is also strongly anti-islam and holds lots of negative views about the religion. I already know she would say that i've been brainwashed and would get my whole family onto me and the local priest etc to try and change my mind. It's not that i’m a coward i know i will have to tell her eventually but i don't feel like i have enough knowledge yet to explain things to her properly and try to change her opinions. I would prefer to wait until i am practicing properly so that i can show her that i am happy with my choice and that i haven't joined some strange cult,lol..
the second thing is that i'm living in a small seaside town in Italy...i have never seen a muslim here and there is no mosque nearby either so i literally have no network of support and nowhere to meet muslims or get help to learn prayer etc (this is why i emphasised how great it is to have internet access and sites like this, thank you!)
I'm actually thinking of moving back to the UK as i grew up there and my dad lives there. It will be really hard for me as i'm very close to mum and my sister and niece live here as well, but i'm starting to realise that not having a muslim community nearby makes things so much harder and i'm scared of getting sidetracked and not being able to practice here...
these days i've been spending a lot of time on the internet and have been learning a lot from sites like these...i was working all summer and i didnt really have time for it but a couple of months ago i was involved in quite a bad accident..i was knocked off my scooter by a car and rushed to hospital with a bad head injury...i fell unconscious and woke up in a daze in the ambulance and all i could hear were sirens and the paramedics saying how much blood there was...i was so scared i actually thought i might die...i couldn't really think straight but i just kept saying please Allah forgive me, forgive me...i was so scared that if i died i would be in really bad sin for not saying my prayers or doing enough to learn more about Islam...
well Alhamdulilah i came out of it with no permanent injuries at all and while i was in hospital the doctors actually found a large cyst attached to my spleen (not caused by the accident) which needs to be removed as it could burst and i had no pain there so they said i might have never found out that it was there...
now i'm waiting to have the operation but as soon as i recover inshAllah i'm gonna try and move..even if its somewhere else in Italy where there's a mosque and muslim community...i think this will be the best thing to do
everyday i'm so much more conscious of death and how we never know when it's our time and i thank Allah everyday for the fact that i'm still here and although at the moment i'm probably the world's worst muslim lol as i still don't know my prayers but i know that i love Allah and Islam and i want to become a good muslim more than anything...
sorry this was so long..i hope noone falls asleep reading this, lol
please pray for me..i feel really scared about being led astray from Islam..i don't want that to happen!
i look forward to reading more stories on this website and i just want to say that reading the replies and advice to people just shows how caring, understanding and helpful muslims are to one another..just like brothers and sisters which is how it should be!
take care everybody
Allah Hafiz