Norii
Member
Salam Alaykum Wa Rahmatu Allah Wa Barakatuhu to all my brothers and sisters,
I am new to the site, however I am not new to Islam. I was born muslim and my parents taught me to pray, read and write arabic (although it is not excellent).
I used to pray consistently and read Quran growing up and Islam has always been in my heart but as I grew up sadly I was practicing less and 10 years later I now find myself so far away from my Deen.
When I strayed from Islam it only meant I was no longer considering what Allah approves of when pursuing things in life but rather what I desired. Then it all backfired one by one and I found myself in a really dark place.
For about a year now I have been trying to practice, my prayers haven't been consistent but I have definitely prayed more this year than I have in the past 10 years put together but I still get weak
2 years ago my prayers didn't cross my mind not even once a day/week or month even but alhamdullah now if I miss a prayer I actually feel guilty. BUT thats not good enough. I don't want to miss a prayer and feel guilty, I wanna feel guilty enough that I make sure I DO NOT miss a prayer.
When I pray I feel really great but most days I feel guilty, sad, bitter, negative, miserable and most importantly empty and that's when I realise that there is still something wrong.
I am just hoping some of you have some advise to help me strengthen my Iman, involve Allah in my thoughts/habits consistently, books I can read, small habits I can engage in, specific prayers, groups, lectures, Sheiks to listen to, maybe even your own experience and how you approached it.
Jazakum Allah Khair my brothers and sisters.
I am new to the site, however I am not new to Islam. I was born muslim and my parents taught me to pray, read and write arabic (although it is not excellent).
I used to pray consistently and read Quran growing up and Islam has always been in my heart but as I grew up sadly I was practicing less and 10 years later I now find myself so far away from my Deen.
When I strayed from Islam it only meant I was no longer considering what Allah approves of when pursuing things in life but rather what I desired. Then it all backfired one by one and I found myself in a really dark place.
For about a year now I have been trying to practice, my prayers haven't been consistent but I have definitely prayed more this year than I have in the past 10 years put together but I still get weak
2 years ago my prayers didn't cross my mind not even once a day/week or month even but alhamdullah now if I miss a prayer I actually feel guilty. BUT thats not good enough. I don't want to miss a prayer and feel guilty, I wanna feel guilty enough that I make sure I DO NOT miss a prayer.
When I pray I feel really great but most days I feel guilty, sad, bitter, negative, miserable and most importantly empty and that's when I realise that there is still something wrong.
I am just hoping some of you have some advise to help me strengthen my Iman, involve Allah in my thoughts/habits consistently, books I can read, small habits I can engage in, specific prayers, groups, lectures, Sheiks to listen to, maybe even your own experience and how you approached it.
Jazakum Allah Khair my brothers and sisters.
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