salam alikom sister .
amen sister for you dua and amen for you too .
no one can tell that he know all except Allah subhanahu wa taala our creator , who aske us for our deed and no one aske him for.
it a mercy for us with his wisdom subhanahu wa taala that he almighty hide the unseen for us . not only the evil , but also the good things.
subhanah Allh taala sister , don't blame your self for aske but it's a good thing to aske . step by step as all sister inshae Allah sister you will know all what you need . we are here to worship Allah subhanahu wa taala , that what we must keep in hearth and mind , we are not a parteners with Allah taala in his kingdom . Allah taala creat nothing by joke , and did nothing by a joke or for fun . hight Allah taala above any imperfection , let us look at sky , at stars , at our selfs , this earth , how amazing and great is this creation , how Allah subhanahu wa taala is great , subhana Allah taala . Allahu Akbar.
instead of reflecting to the creatures of Allah taala , Shaytan drive us to reflect about somethings that make us feel bad and stressful than to refelect to something that make us feel the greatness nd wisdom of Allah subhanahu wa taala.
jazak Allah taala khairan sister tree and sister hijab al3efah for your kind words .may Allah taala bles you.
alhamdulilahi rabi al alamine.