Assalamu Aleykum Warahmatullahe Wabarakaathuh. Keyfa Haaluka Ya Akhee? Inshallah, Anta Kyrin (sorry, but I'm just a beginner at Arabic, the old "school dialect," you know?
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Alhamdulillah brother, that you have chose to come back to Islam at the age of eleven. I actually started questioning Islam when I was 11 years old, and after researching about other religions and Islam, I made my Shahadah again, but THIS time, with REAL faith in my heart. Then, after that, I started on the wrong foot (and fell down on my deen comepletely the following year), and then after being around the Haraam influence, and being around the bad kids (and mixing with their bad stuff), I started to come to relise about the reality, about how all of the bad stuff that I had allowed myself to fall down with just makes me feel upset. I use to feel like KILLING myself in grief, because I always felt empty and sad, and lonely. And so I tried to get back on my deen, and no success. I tried harder, and making Tawbah, and CONSTANTLY shedding tears for forgiveness, guidance, and protected from my evil deeds and from my society, and Alhamdu Lahu, al Rabee al Alameen, Allah Subhannahu wa Ta Alla forgave me, and guided my heart, away from all the Haraam that I had fallen into, and to tell you sincerely from my heart, whenever i look at my present self, and looking back on who I was before, Wallahi, my eyes never fail to shed tears, because Wallahi, the GREATEST blessing to me, was Allah Subhanahu wa Ta Alla, and it still is.Wallahi, after Allah Subhanahu wa Ta Alla guided me, I became someone who I never would have dreamed about being, from my childhood/ Nor would my parents have ever thought that I would ever become.
But, all great things come from Allah Subhanahu wa Ta Alla, and if I could have one thing for eternity, it would be him..............and his Rasul.
So Bhai, you think you could help me out a bit? You know people saying bad stuff about Allah Subhanahu wa Ta Alla and Rasulallah (SAW), yeah well, I SERIOUSLY have made it upon myself that it is my DUTY, that whenever someone curses Rasulallah (SAW) (knowingly) or Allah Subhanahu wa Ta Alla, then I NEED to come up, and start fighting that kid until the security guards or police pull me of (and yeah, that means, even if my whole face starts bleeding, I'm still fighting); but there were times when there were girls that would say that, and unfortunately, I REALLY can't just come up to them and punch them across the face (and knock their teeth out), because it's not good to hit a female.
And I need other help too, because I'm going through the same things that you are going through,
Ya Bhai. But, Inshallah, everythng will go good, Inshallah.
Make dua for me, brothers and sisters; and Jazakumullahu Kyr Wa Barakallahu feekum; wa Yusleehu Baalakum. Ameen.
lol. It's so funny how they call us weird and backward but they are the ones who will be drinking, getting drunk, losing their minds, vomiting, getting involved in fights..and we're backward..i can't stop laughing lol Jazakillaah for your advise ukhtii 
to get at me.. they would make fun of Islaam. The Muslims would call me "preacher boy" for telling them to come with me to pray.
