Salam Alaikum "Chotu" Bhai (lol LUV that by the way),
MashAllah Brother, your level of insight is uncomparable & especially at such a young age. Alhamdulillah, I'm fine. The past few months have been very difficult thus my absence from the board. The marriage situation is indeed a stressful situation, so be sure to build a strong Islamic character as you grow because character is what defines a person & Islamic character is what defines a Muslim. Your future wife will look to see just how solid of a character you have & this is what will give her the security she needs to be sure enough of you to marry you. If this sounds vague, please don't mind it lol. The path you're already heading down is a great one; just make sure you stay on it inshAllah.