4mMadara2Amina
Junior Member
As salam alykom my muslim sisters and brothers....
Truly speaking am a little bit down now a days. I try my best to read about Islam, finding explanations on words what I do not understand (and they are plenty, example, still in my searching list will be: shari, zamzam, tasleem, nafs, duat, ibadah and many more) and save them all in my computer and reread them to memorize them.
Am a new wife and I have my own responsibilities what I should do and need to do. But inside me I am not calm. I have scares... Have feeling I might die... Actually its like that since last 2 to 3 months. Feeling I have no really have future?!... Brothers ans siters am not sure what to do. One night was simply crying and asking ALLAH help and will keep doing this, but I don't think it is something to good... (I mean feelings..)
Now am making extra time for knowing Islam, am so scared that I do not know nothing much as a convert yet - 4th month already. And this feeling making me hurry....
Pluss have some things what not exactly good with missing my family (as I am living in other country- now it is Sweden) and here I do not know any muslim sister. The Mosque is very far and I am not calm at all... I wish I be someone to talk to. Of course I have someONE all the time with me, in me and all around me, but you know what I mean- human being need someone to talk, share and simply maybe walk down the park and discuss weekly stuffs.
If I could ask so- please make for me Dua's that I could find peace. Maybe than all other things won't seem too hard for me and will be more easy carry them.
I am sorry for making this tread kind just all around me, but I really have no one except my husband who I know here. I just wanted to share... Even lately even here I feel lonely not as in the beginning... Many treads start be non-answered and all. I am patient and after 3 days waiting I got some answers on one of my treads, but hopefully someone could talk to me- just to clear my mind. InshALLAH...:tti_sister:
Truly speaking am a little bit down now a days. I try my best to read about Islam, finding explanations on words what I do not understand (and they are plenty, example, still in my searching list will be: shari, zamzam, tasleem, nafs, duat, ibadah and many more) and save them all in my computer and reread them to memorize them.
Am a new wife and I have my own responsibilities what I should do and need to do. But inside me I am not calm. I have scares... Have feeling I might die... Actually its like that since last 2 to 3 months. Feeling I have no really have future?!... Brothers ans siters am not sure what to do. One night was simply crying and asking ALLAH help and will keep doing this, but I don't think it is something to good... (I mean feelings..)
Now am making extra time for knowing Islam, am so scared that I do not know nothing much as a convert yet - 4th month already. And this feeling making me hurry....
Pluss have some things what not exactly good with missing my family (as I am living in other country- now it is Sweden) and here I do not know any muslim sister. The Mosque is very far and I am not calm at all... I wish I be someone to talk to. Of course I have someONE all the time with me, in me and all around me, but you know what I mean- human being need someone to talk, share and simply maybe walk down the park and discuss weekly stuffs.
If I could ask so- please make for me Dua's that I could find peace. Maybe than all other things won't seem too hard for me and will be more easy carry them.
I am sorry for making this tread kind just all around me, but I really have no one except my husband who I know here. I just wanted to share... Even lately even here I feel lonely not as in the beginning... Many treads start be non-answered and all. I am patient and after 3 days waiting I got some answers on one of my treads, but hopefully someone could talk to me- just to clear my mind. InshALLAH...:tti_sister: