Asslam allacum,:shymuslima1lease exscuse my spellings im a new sister.:shymuslima1:
i am very much lost at the moment,
:tti_sister:
i married soon after my conversion but we are going through a divorce at the moment, i wasnt treated as i should have been.i wont go into details too much but i couldnt stay and i know its frowned upon to divorce but it was for the best,i hope allah can guide us both and give us both a happy life, for he knows best. i dont really know what to do as far as my religion is concerned i converted for my husband and now we are no longer going to be 2gether i decided i still want to be muslim,but i have no support where i am.i found this site marshalla and inshalla it will help me,i am surrounded by friends and family when ever i want but yet i am still alone.
i am from a mixed race background dad is blk an mum white,both are christians well mums greek protestant.so as you can imagine the path i chose was a shock,i havnt told them about my name change yet,that might be too much at the moment for them, it was alythia,i was going to keep it as that and i have done since converting but i guess i want to move on from my kaffa days as much as possible.
i just pray that allah will guide me inshalla as i am very lost right now,i mean i can manage a few things alone but now i am not with my husband i have no one to guide me with certain things,i am finding it hard to pray without him.as most times i could recite in my head as he did out loud.i wish we didnt have to divorce but i had to leave him.i feel awful everyday.i dont have any muslim friends around so its hard,so very hard. i cry everyday for i love my religion but am lost and i love my husband but unfortunatly i cant cope with his temper.i wont say much more than this as i dont want to appear as if i am backbiting anyone. so please may allah guide us both and i pray his deen strengthens daily and i pray to allah for guidance to be given to me. i pray he sends me in the right direction.
i am very much lost at the moment,
:tti_sister:
i married soon after my conversion but we are going through a divorce at the moment, i wasnt treated as i should have been.i wont go into details too much but i couldnt stay and i know its frowned upon to divorce but it was for the best,i hope allah can guide us both and give us both a happy life, for he knows best. i dont really know what to do as far as my religion is concerned i converted for my husband and now we are no longer going to be 2gether i decided i still want to be muslim,but i have no support where i am.i found this site marshalla and inshalla it will help me,i am surrounded by friends and family when ever i want but yet i am still alone.
i am from a mixed race background dad is blk an mum white,both are christians well mums greek protestant.so as you can imagine the path i chose was a shock,i havnt told them about my name change yet,that might be too much at the moment for them, it was alythia,i was going to keep it as that and i have done since converting but i guess i want to move on from my kaffa days as much as possible.
i just pray that allah will guide me inshalla as i am very lost right now,i mean i can manage a few things alone but now i am not with my husband i have no one to guide me with certain things,i am finding it hard to pray without him.as most times i could recite in my head as he did out loud.i wish we didnt have to divorce but i had to leave him.i feel awful everyday.i dont have any muslim friends around so its hard,so very hard. i cry everyday for i love my religion but am lost and i love my husband but unfortunatly i cant cope with his temper.i wont say much more than this as i dont want to appear as if i am backbiting anyone. so please may allah guide us both and i pray his deen strengthens daily and i pray to allah for guidance to be given to me. i pray he sends me in the right direction.