I understand!!
Salaam Sister,
I totally understand, wallah. I became ill the night before Ramadan started and ended up having emergency surgery and had my appendix removed alhamdulilah. I am healing but haven't been able to fast and it is depressing me. I am going to try and fast today insha'Allah but not sure how long I will last....
The important thing for us is that we have the strong desire to be fasting, and Allah's wisdom goes beyond our's....He knows what is best for us. All we can do is still perform acts of worship, still give in charity, still pray and attend Taraweeh and do our best....at the end of the day, if we did our absolute best, then that is what matters.
Feed a homeless person, start a coat drive for the needy, organize an iftar for fasting people....do something that will make you feel good too.
Wishing you a fast road to recovery insha'Allah.
May Allah (SWT) make this a blessed month for all muslims, ameen.
Wasalaam,
J