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Well, I got an ipod for Eid, and now... I lost it. I had a dream a few days ago of satan stealing my purse, with my most valuable thing, my ipod in it(as silly as it sounds, its true. please take it seriously), and he said that the only way that I am to get it back, is if I call him my new lord and betray Allah.:astag: But I told my parents that I was not going to do that, I love Him too much. But I still kept on crying, screaming that I want my things back. But I did not want to do by accepting satan, I wanted to do it by other means. My parents got annoyed by me, and said that I will not go get it back and I never did.
Then, two days later, I lost my ipod in real life. I lost it last sunday. I have been looking for it everywhere. That sunday I had a hugeeee project to do. I was listening to music before, but then I was losing focus on my work, so I put it off to the side on my desk. My full focus was finishing my project which was due the next morning. I had no intention then for four hours about my ipod, I was just working. I finished my project around 2 A.M. and did not remember my ipod at all. I printed my report did namaaz and fell asleep. The next morning I tried looking for it but couldnt find it. So since then, I HAVE BEEN SEARCHING CRAZILY!! I cannot find it. It is my most cherished worldly possession. I spent all my eid money on it and my parents did too. By the way, I only had it for two months. I am praying for Allah to help me find it. I think Allah might be punishing me because I commited a recent sin that I cry to Allah to forgive me for it. I amm soooooo ashamed of myself. It had to do with my ipod, so that is also why I think Allah is keeping me from it.
I am soooo afraid that Allah would punish me for it. I do not want to lose it. My parents said that because it was so expensive, they will never buy me any expensive thing for a couple of years. I did EVERYTHING ON IT! I do not know if it fell into the garbage either. Because the garbage is right beside my desk, so yah. I am crying to Allah constantly to give it back to me. I am afraid my parents will beat me because I lost it. I am afraid that Allah will never return it to me. I cry and cry that Allah returns it back to me and forgives me for my sin, He is the Ever Merciful. I am soooo ashamed of my sin and I feel a hypocrite too. I do not want to discuss it though. The only reason I did it was because I was curious and did not know it was wrong. But part of was because I could not control myself. I told Allah, that I will never do it again! Please oh Lord return it to me! I looked everywhere! It has been almost a week and my prayers have not even been close to being answered. WHAT DO I DOOOO????/!!!!!!
Well, I got an ipod for Eid, and now... I lost it. I had a dream a few days ago of satan stealing my purse, with my most valuable thing, my ipod in it(as silly as it sounds, its true. please take it seriously), and he said that the only way that I am to get it back, is if I call him my new lord and betray Allah.:astag: But I told my parents that I was not going to do that, I love Him too much. But I still kept on crying, screaming that I want my things back. But I did not want to do by accepting satan, I wanted to do it by other means. My parents got annoyed by me, and said that I will not go get it back and I never did.
Then, two days later, I lost my ipod in real life. I lost it last sunday. I have been looking for it everywhere. That sunday I had a hugeeee project to do. I was listening to music before, but then I was losing focus on my work, so I put it off to the side on my desk. My full focus was finishing my project which was due the next morning. I had no intention then for four hours about my ipod, I was just working. I finished my project around 2 A.M. and did not remember my ipod at all. I printed my report did namaaz and fell asleep. The next morning I tried looking for it but couldnt find it. So since then, I HAVE BEEN SEARCHING CRAZILY!! I cannot find it. It is my most cherished worldly possession. I spent all my eid money on it and my parents did too. By the way, I only had it for two months. I am praying for Allah to help me find it. I think Allah might be punishing me because I commited a recent sin that I cry to Allah to forgive me for it. I amm soooooo ashamed of myself. It had to do with my ipod, so that is also why I think Allah is keeping me from it.
I am soooo afraid that Allah would punish me for it. I do not want to lose it. My parents said that because it was so expensive, they will never buy me any expensive thing for a couple of years. I did EVERYTHING ON IT! I do not know if it fell into the garbage either. Because the garbage is right beside my desk, so yah. I am crying to Allah constantly to give it back to me. I am afraid my parents will beat me because I lost it. I am afraid that Allah will never return it to me. I cry and cry that Allah returns it back to me and forgives me for my sin, He is the Ever Merciful. I am soooo ashamed of my sin and I feel a hypocrite too. I do not want to discuss it though. The only reason I did it was because I was curious and did not know it was wrong. But part of was because I could not control myself. I told Allah, that I will never do it again! Please oh Lord return it to me! I looked everywhere! It has been almost a week and my prayers have not even been close to being answered. WHAT DO I DOOOO????/!!!!!!
anyways as i said before i think it might have fell into the garbage. i am sooooo worried. i am praying and praying to Allah to tell me what happend to it through a dream maybe, since i cannot find it. i am certain that it is somewhere in the house unless it fell into the garbage as i said. see now im almost crying again. pleaseeeee helppppppp!!!! i just want to know why Allah is delaying my prayer. i am sure aware that all of you know that youth are often impatient. please just give me hope that Allah will not disregard my prayers, that it is for good. Allah has NEVER let me down, and i know that im an awful person but that is not enough for me to know that this prayer will not be answered. Why are they not being answered is my question!?and also when i listen to my ipod, it is mainly for islamic purposes. except for that one haram sin i commited
and ask Allah sincerely :tti_sister:B things will be better.