Asja
Pearl of Islaam
** I have a secret to reveal**
I have a secret that my hearts wants to reveal. This what you see it is not me. I am not me. But still it is my life, my strugle and not my choice. I have a secret to reveal, but I can not it is Allahs gift to me. It is my protection, my shell, nobody has right to see. It would be like people have discover me. And I am all alone on this world. My eyes look for their Lord but there are no eyes that can reach Him, The Most Glorious One He is. And my soul is dieing every day for not finding Him, so far away from me He is, but still so close to me and I know my Lord is here. But I am not the right person for that gift, I am not so strong to take it with me. I am so weak and everyday I am strugleing.
So much pain I need to take , it is so hard for me, but it is still a blessing.
I look for Him in every morning while I call His Glorious name, My Allah I say. When sun apears I open my arms and I run towoards the sun thinking it is my Lord, but than I stand and I see it is a small reflection of His Glory. I stay there and I wait for my Lord to come, to Him I want to run, but it is still not my time. Than I wait for the night to fall and moon to appear and I think now it is time when my Lord I will see. I open my arms to the moon but than I stand and I see it is only a small reflection of His Glory. And I look in the sky but my eyes are not finding Him, far away from me He is.
I have a secret to reveal but I can not, it is Allahs gift to me, nobody has right to see.
I am still so young, beautiful flower but my soul is withening for not seeing her Lord. I hide myselfe from people, so that they do not look at me. They looks cause to much pain to me . When I am alone I am closer to my Lord, than I am protected and nobody can hurt me.
I have a secret to reveal but it is better silent to be. I am afraid how people would look at me when they would discover me. And I am story for myselfe. Different from others it is just that nobody sees, but that is what I want, that is how Allah wants to be.
Ya Allah please protect me and please wait for me, every day I am closer to you but there are still so many things that I need here to do. My Lord when time passes please do not forget me. I love you more than heart can take, more than eyes can see, more than arms can hug. I love you more than ethernity . Even ethernity would not be enough to live every day only for serving you. Every day my eyes which are reflection of the blue sky and deep sea, are coloecting pearls like my gift to you. My Allah please forgive me for not being able to do more. Sometimes my eyes are cloudy and not so blue , but that is in those moments when I can not reach to you. And may white face that is reflection of moon has become pale becouse I am not finding The Most Loving One anywhere. That is why I look for you every day and I do not feel tired of walking so much, becouse eternal rest is with you Ya Rabb.
I have a secret to reveal.....................................this what you see it is not me..............
Written by: Lost soul on this world(ME)