If I could only........

[Asja]

If I could only..........


***Oh Allah Almighty,if I could be one drop of rain that faals which is praising you in her fall,and be your best Servent.If I could only know which is dua which You Love the Most I would recite it all day and night, If I could only do so much for You my Lord.But I can not,I feel so small,and helpess. My eyes are just looking for You,and really they are full of tears,
If You could only remove them and take all the pain.If I could only Allah and if You could only. If I could only, I would wake up all the word to Praise you and fall you on sayda,If I could do aynthing Oh my Lord.
If I could back the time when I was litlle girl,when I was runing with my heavy steps,stoped on one moment and look up to the sky,and when I promissed You that I will be Your good Servent because even than I loved You. I can even remember my litlle heart beets than but still I can not get that moment which means so much to me.
If I could only get back that litlle peace happiness of me,that litlle part of heart that left on the same place but I can not get back the time.I only took that Love with me and she was always there,in all my existence,in all my breath,in every my step, in my dreams and in my whole being.
And now I am afraid that my intentions on Your way will just stay that.I am afraid that I will die and never see sunset in Makkah and a loot of birds doing Tawah around the Kaabah to my Lord.While writers are writeing stories ;I am afraid that I will leave this world andnnot leave any mark,not fullfill the reason of my existence and not be Your Good Servent. Oh Allah The Most Mercyfull do not deprive me of Your endless goodness and Mercy,do not let that I fall a sleap on the begining of way without finishing it,My Lord all of Your Generosity do not let that I do not fullfill the reason of my existence.

Oh Allah,If I could be bud of rose,which is flourishing in every spring,and again summer,praising You.If I could be eyelieds of Momin in Jannah,to feel such a happiness in my heart,If I could only.But I feel so helpess and small ifront of You my Lord,with only wish in my heart to know that You Love me and that you are pleased with me.But me,I can not fly to You to know that,just wait for the moment where all Your Servents will be there,looking in Your noble face.

On The end I have find the most pure word and one dua.Oh Allah please do not leave me and all Your honest servents without Your Greatest Mercy. You are The One who is The Greatest Protector,The Giver of Life and deatth,of sorow and happiness,to You bolong all Praises and To You we always Return.***


Written by:Asja

 

[ayesha_r]

:salam2:
wow sis asja..
mashallah it is so beautiful
I really like reading it..
take care
walikum salam

 

[saima abdullah]

:salam2:
wow sister ,,,,,true feelings out put
mashaAllah

 

[Al-bint]

salaam alaikum sistr u made me cry so much such that my i need to wash my face before seeing any of my family mmbrz.......
this happened after such a long time..........
thanks a lotttttt
n loads of regards
jazakallah khairn

 

[IbnAdam77]

wa'alaikumussalam warahmatullahi wabarakatuh

Oh Allah please do not leave me and all Your honest servents without Your Greatest Mercy. You are The One who is The Greatest Protector,The Giver of Life and deatth,of sorow and happiness,to You bolong all Praises and To You we always Return.

Allahumma Ameen!

JazakiAllahu khair.

wassalam 'alaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh

 

[fada_all]

salam alikum

nice masha allah dear ukhtii Asja , you are so talented masha allah pure words that are full of wisdom in fact.........

jazakai allah avery hair fi duniya wa al akhirah may allah swt grant you al firdaous al aa'la

 

[Asja]

Assalamu Allaicum wa raahmatullah wa baarkatuhu beloved brothers and sisters.

I am so happy that my small words could reach your heart and that you like it for the sake of Allah.Jazzak Allah khairen for your kind replys,and may Allah Almighty reword you as well with the Highest place in Jannah and keep you forever under His Protection.

Dear sister Al-Bint...Wallahi you brought tears in my eyes too.
May Allah reword you sister.:tti_sister:

May Allah bless you all

 

[Al-bint]

Dear sister Al-Bint...Wallahi you brought tears in my eyes too.
May Allah reword you sister.:tti_sister:

May Allah bless you all

Ameeeen
thanks a lot for such a beautiful article n the dua....
May Allah bless us all.....
alhamdullilah for evrything
Jazakallah khairan

 

[Abdul Hasib]

Assalamu Aleykum Warahmatullahi Wabarakaathuh dear sister Asja, Wallahi that poem felt so beautiful, I was about to cry towards the beginning.

Wallahi Baji, I understand about how you feel, that you just want to please Allah Subhanahu wa Ta Alla as much as you can in your life, and that would be IT, and you would want nothing else.

And I find that very remarkable to see that in you Asja Baji, Wallahi if you were me, if you went through what I went through as a child and growing up and being a bad person, then it would NEVER fail to make tears come out of your eyes when you just think about all the greatest blessings that Allah Subhanahu wa Ta Alla has given me, which is: good knowledge, compassion, trying to attain piety, trying and wanting to follow Rasulalllah (SAW), to PLEASE Allah Subhanahu wa Ta Alla, to rid the world of injustice, to fight alongside Amir al Mumineen, to get slain in battle just because I wanted to make sure that I could acheive doing good deeds to please Allah Subhanahu wa Ta Alla, and most of all, to actually KNOW Allah Subhanahu wa Ta Alla, and to Love him and his Rasul more than ANYONE or ANYTHING, and By the Creator of the Universe and the Realms (of Jannah and Jahanam), not even having the greatest place in Jannah (above anyone else) would please my heart more than trying to Please Allah Subhanahu wa Ta Alla.

Actually Asja Baji, I remember some months ago you talked about how your healt felt so overwhelmed over having a deep love for Allah Subhanahu wa Ta Alla, and that you felt that there seems to be something strange about you, that you feel like you don't even care about Jannah, all you just care about is Allah Subhanahu wa Ta Alla and that you die pleasing him, and that is it.

Wallahi Isra Baji, I would feel the same way, but you know what? It's alright that you feel that way, because that's ACTUALLY a HIGH level of Eman that you are on, that with all of your good deeds that you just want to Please Allah Subhanahu wa Ta Alla with it instead of trying to do a lot of good deeds because you want to get "rewarded" in Jannah. I personally, would feel that I myslef, should not think about rewards in Jannah and so forth, because Allah Subhanahu wa Ta Alla CREATED me, and BLESSED ME with the PEACE, HAPPINESS, and SERENITY in my heart that I have ALWAYS been searching for ever since I was a child.

But you know what Asja Baji? You could wish for just ONE thing in Jannah, and by the way, this is waht Rasulallah (SAW) and The Lord of the Heavans of the Earth promised, that to the people of Jannah, they would feel that this would be the GREATEST blessing of Allah Subhanahu wa Ta Alla that he has given them, and that GREATEST BLESSING in Jannah is: to see the face of Allah Subhanahu wa Ta Alla.

Wallahi when I saw this video the first time, I collapsed from my chair and felt that I couldn't get up, I just felt like crying extremely, until I started crying all over the floor extremely and then I ran to the bathroom (so no one could see me) and just continued crying over there, until I got to the point that my eyes turned red from crying.

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And so even though you feel like as if nothing in Jannah matters to you Baji, you could just imagine looking up and seeing Allah Subhanahu wa Ta Alla on his Arsh (Throne), and Wallahi, I started having that feeling in my Salat, that I'm in a Masjid (like Masjid al Kabir), and instead of there being the towering walls around me and the roof, I would instead be abke to see Allah Subhanahu wa Ta Alla above me, and I could Praise and Glorify him all I wanted to in my Salat, and go into Sajdah and really KNOWING that I'm getting extremely close to Allah Subhanahu wa Ta Alla.

Iman affects many, and for some, it affects them in the best of ways, like having an extreme desire to Please Allah Subhanahu wa Ta Alla, following his Rasul (SAW), and having an EXTREME amount of Compassion towards others, Wallahi these blessings (and many more!) are just so MIND BOGGLING to people, like in my Graphic Arts Class and in my school, no one would understand why I would try to be extremely ncie, and when I told my Graphic Arts teacher about how bad I feel that none of the students around me have any sense of Mercy towards anyoen (maening that they find it funny when someone suffers), then he told me that the reason why I feel like being extremely kind and helpful to people is because I haev Compassion, and Wallahi I could NOT beleive this when I heard me teacher say that, but I know in my heart, that Verily, all of these things (that I have mentioned throughout this post and in my other posts) that are a part of me, are ONLY from Allah Subhanahu wa Ta Alla, and in no way do I want others to know my Deeds or to Admire me, but I just feel such an URGE to say all of this to someone important to me, and who's more deserving of that than my beloved brothers and sisters in Islam?

And Verily, all Praise belongs to Allah Subhanahu wa Ta Alla.

Assalamu Aleykum Warahmatullahi Wabarakaathuh Asja Baji, and also to my other brothers and ssiters........

 

[aroojimran]

Assalamu alykum sister

What a wonderful peice of writing this is!
Truly Amazing is your art of expressing your love for Allah..
And even more beautiful and immaculate is your love for HIM..

My eyes welled ud while reading this n my heart felt the pangs...

Jazakallah khairan

waalykom asallam wrwb

 

[Asja]

Assalamu alykum sister

What a wonderful peice of writing this is!
Truly Amazing is your art of expressing your love for Allah..
And even more beautiful and immaculate is your love for HIM..

My eyes welled ud while reading this n my heart felt the pangs...

Jazakallah khairan

waalykom asallam wrwb

Wa Allaicum saalam wa raahmatullah wa baarakatuhu my beloved sister Arroj.

Jazzak Allah khairen and thank you so much dear sister for your kindest and so beautiful words.May Allah bless you and reword you too for your Love for Allah,and His honest Servents.

And Wallahi I Love you too more from my heart SubhanAllah.

May Allah bless you always

 

[Asja]

Assalamu Aleykum Warahmatullahi Wabarakaathuh dear sister Asja, Wallahi that poem felt so beautiful, I was about to cry towards the beginning.

Wallahi Baji, I understand about how you feel, that you just want to please Allah Subhanahu wa Ta Alla as much as you can in your life, and that would be IT, and you would want nothing else.

And I find that very remarkable to see that in you Asja Baji, Wallahi if you were me, if you went through what I went through as a child and growing up and being a bad person, then it would NEVER fail to make tears come out of your eyes when you just think about all the greatest blessings that Allah Subhanahu wa Ta Alla has given me, which is: good knowledge, compassion, trying to attain piety, trying and wanting to follow Rasulalllah (SAW), to PLEASE Allah Subhanahu wa Ta Alla, to rid the world of injustice, to fight alongside Amir al Mumineen, to get slain in battle just because I wanted to make sure that I could acheive doing good deeds to please Allah Subhanahu wa Ta Alla, and most of all, to actually KNOW Allah Subhanahu wa Ta Alla, and to Love him and his Rasul more than ANYONE or ANYTHING, and By the Creator of the Universe and the Realms (of Jannah and Jahanam), not even having the greatest place in Jannah (above anyone else) would please my heart more than trying to Please Allah Subhanahu wa Ta Alla.

But you know what Asja Baji? You could wish for just ONE thing in Jannah, and by the way, this is waht Rasulallah (SAW) and The Lord of the Heavans of the Earth promised, that to the people of Jannah, they would feel that this would be the GREATEST blessing of Allah Subhanahu wa Ta Alla that he has given them, and that GREATEST BLESSING in Jannah is: to see the face of Allah Subhanahu wa Ta Alla.

Wa Allaicum saalam wa raahmatullah wa baaraktuhu my dear brother Abdul Hasib.

Jazzak Allah khiar for you kind words and beautiful Duas Mashallah. Wallahi your words always bring happiness in my heart dear brother because they are pure and we all can learn so much from them,from your knowlodge and your Great Love for Allah.I know brother that you do everything to please Allah,and may Allah help you on that way always and forever,and
reword you with Jannatul Firdows for being His good servent,make you one of those with who He is pleased,and keep you always under His protection.Ameen,

Jazzak Allah khar for sharing this video.I have already watched and wallahi it is amazing MashAllah.And I agree with you brother,that the most precious and beautiful reword to all belivers would be seeing His face SubhanAllah and wallahi noone can imagine Beauty of Allah . InshAllah it wil be the happiest day for all uf us..Ameen:tti_sister:

I apologise for my short reply on so long post,

May Allah bless you and all of us