Hassam Alizai
Member
AssalamoAlaikum wrahmatullahiwabarakathu
PS. Sorry for Bad english.
My name is Hassam and I am 16 years old. I have recently turned to Islam but it doesn't mean that I was a non-muslim before. i was born in a muslim family but never bothered to practice Islam in my life, but due to some good company, I realized the true message of Islam and started practicing it a little. I still fear Allah so much for the sins I've committed in the past. Still it is very difficult for me to practice Islam.
I dont know what to do, Life is so glamorous around me. I am so weak. I fall into sin again and again. I cry sitting in Mosques. I beg Allah to save me from the sins around me as I am very weak to do so. But at the moment I go home, I forget everything and fall into music, Movies and other types of sins again. I've got many local practicing muslim friends. I often hang out with them so often but My lust for desires is so strong that I can't simply control myself and let go of myself. My parents can't understand me and I can't tell them what I use to do cuz if I do so, they may beat me up a lot. I want to get free from this life. There is so beauty around me, so many music to listen on my smartphone, so many movies to watch, so much bad stuff to do that I completely forget Allah, please Brothers and sisters pray for me. I want to go to Jannah, I want to see dear Allah's face there, but I am so weak in myself. I always lose the war between me and my nafs.
Sometimes, I urge to leave everything behind and Go on a Jihad and never come back but I can't do so cuz I have parents and a family.
Searching for online muslim community, I came upon this website. I hope you people will do the best to understand me and I'm sure You will remember me in your prayers.
JazakAllah Khayrun
Hassam Alizai
PS. Sorry for Bad english.
My name is Hassam and I am 16 years old. I have recently turned to Islam but it doesn't mean that I was a non-muslim before. i was born in a muslim family but never bothered to practice Islam in my life, but due to some good company, I realized the true message of Islam and started practicing it a little. I still fear Allah so much for the sins I've committed in the past. Still it is very difficult for me to practice Islam.
I dont know what to do, Life is so glamorous around me. I am so weak. I fall into sin again and again. I cry sitting in Mosques. I beg Allah to save me from the sins around me as I am very weak to do so. But at the moment I go home, I forget everything and fall into music, Movies and other types of sins again. I've got many local practicing muslim friends. I often hang out with them so often but My lust for desires is so strong that I can't simply control myself and let go of myself. My parents can't understand me and I can't tell them what I use to do cuz if I do so, they may beat me up a lot. I want to get free from this life. There is so beauty around me, so many music to listen on my smartphone, so many movies to watch, so much bad stuff to do that I completely forget Allah, please Brothers and sisters pray for me. I want to go to Jannah, I want to see dear Allah's face there, but I am so weak in myself. I always lose the war between me and my nafs.
Sometimes, I urge to leave everything behind and Go on a Jihad and never come back but I can't do so cuz I have parents and a family.
Searching for online muslim community, I came upon this website. I hope you people will do the best to understand me and I'm sure You will remember me in your prayers.
JazakAllah Khayrun
Hassam Alizai