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i grew up living in london and during my teen years done some really stupid stuff that i managed to get over and about 2 years ago i started practising islam and it was all good till i moved to iraq, the kurdish region and then it all went bad. i was wearing hijab for a year and then when i moved i was forced to take it of and then i began neglecting my faith and my duties as a muslim girl...its cos my family are involved with the governmetn and all our friends are part of that circle and unfortunantely not many respect islam the way it should be and do the whole thing during ramazan but thats probably as far as it goes. the majority of kurds where i live are muslim by name but not by natire and unfortunantely thats what i have become. but my mind is constantly occupied bout how i was this time last year. i have to face such difficult stuff but my faith kept me so strong but know i feel as though i have nothing. i really want to go back to london and practise the way i used to without people being so judgemental... people here are like ''dont think bout wearing the hijab cos u have people constantly around you and ur family and u cant be an islamist'' then they say dumb stuff like 'we're muslims too just cos we dont wear hijab u think we're kaffirs?!'' but they do less than that and ive let that influence affect me too. i would never have thought in a muslim country they would go on bout muslim terrorists so much that they use it as a excuse to prevent themselves and others from practising. is it dumb that i found more freedom in london than i did in iraq? my dad and mum are well known here and to be 'islami' is bad for them and this guy know that proposed to me his parents are in the same circle...(although they are much better in accepting me as a hijabi than my own parents) but i dont want to be a shame on them either. i just feel like i need to get away from here and start my life again in a non muslim country... is that a dumb way to think bout it?
i grew up living in london and during my teen years done some really stupid stuff that i managed to get over and about 2 years ago i started practising islam and it was all good till i moved to iraq, the kurdish region and then it all went bad. i was wearing hijab for a year and then when i moved i was forced to take it of and then i began neglecting my faith and my duties as a muslim girl...its cos my family are involved with the governmetn and all our friends are part of that circle and unfortunantely not many respect islam the way it should be and do the whole thing during ramazan but thats probably as far as it goes. the majority of kurds where i live are muslim by name but not by natire and unfortunantely thats what i have become. but my mind is constantly occupied bout how i was this time last year. i have to face such difficult stuff but my faith kept me so strong but know i feel as though i have nothing. i really want to go back to london and practise the way i used to without people being so judgemental... people here are like ''dont think bout wearing the hijab cos u have people constantly around you and ur family and u cant be an islamist'' then they say dumb stuff like 'we're muslims too just cos we dont wear hijab u think we're kaffirs?!'' but they do less than that and ive let that influence affect me too. i would never have thought in a muslim country they would go on bout muslim terrorists so much that they use it as a excuse to prevent themselves and others from practising. is it dumb that i found more freedom in london than i did in iraq? my dad and mum are well known here and to be 'islami' is bad for them and this guy know that proposed to me his parents are in the same circle...(although they are much better in accepting me as a hijabi than my own parents) but i dont want to be a shame on them either. i just feel like i need to get away from here and start my life again in a non muslim country... is that a dumb way to think bout it?