:salam2: I feel salah and asking Allah to help you and protect you from shaytaan is the only way.
O' my Master! Remove the adoration of worldliness from my heart, And
unite me with Mustafa (Muhammad: the chosen messenger) and his family,
the dearest of Your creatures and the last of the prophets, Muhammad,
Peace from Allah upon him and his family, And transfer me to the level
of repentance to You, And help me to cry for myself for I have wasted my
life away with procrastination and false hopes, And now I have come to
You hopeless of my goodness, Who is more worse off than me, if now I am
passed on in my present state to a grave that I have not prepared for my
repose and I did not line with good deeds for my drowse, And why would I
not weep for I have no knowledge of my fate and I observe my self
deceiving itself, and my days are fading away, and the wings of death
have flapped close by, So why wouldn't I cry! I cry for surrendering my
life, I cry because of the darkness of my grave, I cry because of the
narrowness of my hole ( Lahad), I cry for the questioning of Munkar and
Nakeer of me (the names of the two angels that question the dead after
being laid in the graves), I cry from my leaving my grave (in the
hereafter) naked, humiliated and carrying my book ( of deeds) on my
back, I look to the right once and to the left once and I discover that
people today have other concern than mine, for every person that day has
a concern of his own, some faces today are bright, laughing and joyful,
while other faces that day are dusty, loaded with submission and humility.
MAKE DUA < DO YOUR BEST AND LEAVE THE REST TO ALLAH