Hello everyone. I took my shahadah last week but still don't know where to start. I actually just learned what islam is a few weeks ago. I knew this is what I was missing. I was raised christian but never fully understood the trinity. I read the Bible over and over while growing up and still continued to question it. I even quit going to church recently because it just did not seem like a Holy place anymore, just a big concert and a feel good sermon with no morals to it.
I have always loved God. I never smoked, never drink or say bad words. I do not eat meat. I have been practicing abstinence and I have always dressed modestly. All I wanted was a closer relationship with God but being a christian just holds no value now. Christians can have sex smoke drink etc, christians dont have to pray, christians can do whatever they want because Jesus already died for our sins. I just did not understand how I was to grow closer to God in such a "watered down religion." By his grace God blessed me with a one bedroom apartment in a new city far away from my family who did not practice religion anymore and was nothing but negative all the time. The first night in my new home I prayed to God to help me grow closer to Him and help me not to abuse this new freedom and independence. The following morning I found a tv program about islam as I was flipping through the channels. I was so intrigued that I began to research. I just felt like this is what God wanted for me. He brought me from living in a home with depressed family members who practiced every form of sin and had no spirituality in a city where I'd never seen a muslim in real life to a city with a muslim population of 10,000, many mosque close by, and my own apartment where I can worship freely.
I have seen many muslims in my new city but do not have any muslim friends, have not told any of my friends or family that I am now muslim, and have not began saying the 5 prayers because I can't figure out the right way. Each website and youtube video says something different. I also have not read the quran because i dont know arabic.
A little guidance would be greatly appreciated!
I have always loved God. I never smoked, never drink or say bad words. I do not eat meat. I have been practicing abstinence and I have always dressed modestly. All I wanted was a closer relationship with God but being a christian just holds no value now. Christians can have sex smoke drink etc, christians dont have to pray, christians can do whatever they want because Jesus already died for our sins. I just did not understand how I was to grow closer to God in such a "watered down religion." By his grace God blessed me with a one bedroom apartment in a new city far away from my family who did not practice religion anymore and was nothing but negative all the time. The first night in my new home I prayed to God to help me grow closer to Him and help me not to abuse this new freedom and independence. The following morning I found a tv program about islam as I was flipping through the channels. I was so intrigued that I began to research. I just felt like this is what God wanted for me. He brought me from living in a home with depressed family members who practiced every form of sin and had no spirituality in a city where I'd never seen a muslim in real life to a city with a muslim population of 10,000, many mosque close by, and my own apartment where I can worship freely.
I have seen many muslims in my new city but do not have any muslim friends, have not told any of my friends or family that I am now muslim, and have not began saying the 5 prayers because I can't figure out the right way. Each website and youtube video says something different. I also have not read the quran because i dont know arabic.
A little guidance would be greatly appreciated!