salam alyssa,
I just pm'ed you about books and other things. I have one on how to pray also. please don't despair, you are on the siratal mostaqeem, the straight path. Do not let the shaitans whispers bring you down. Have you learned how to recite any surahs from the Quran yet. I also have a book to help you with that, insha'Allah. I am married to a Moroccan brother. You said your going to be married soon right? That's great news. Don't let your family bring you down dear sister, i too have that same problem. Just make dua'a, if you don't know how i can tell you that also, to Allah, to ease your path. I will also pray for you. Let me know if you need anything at all, i can ship to you whereever you are, insha'Allah.
hannah