dear brother, may i quote for you this verses from the quran? read them carefully brother for allah testts the MOST devout people even prophets. Remember the prophet Abraham was tested by allah asking for the sacrifice of his first Son? and remember how he passed the test by never disobeying allahs commands...
"Do people think that they will be left alone because they say: We believe, - and will not be tested. And We indeed tested those who were before them. [al-Ankaboot:2]
"Or think you that you will enter Paradise without such (trials) as came to those who passed away before you? They were afflicted with severe poverty and ailments and were so shaken that even the Messenger and those who believed along with him said, When (will come) the Help of Allah? Yes! Certainly, the Help of Allah is near!" [al-Baqarah:214]
"Allah will not leave the believers in the state in which you are now, until He distinguishes the wicked from the good" [Aal Imraan:179]
remember my younger brother, allah sees all and loves the one who does not loose faith in allah when they are tested. This is your test and may allah help you pass it ameen.
