Salam2You
Lil' Muslimah
Salam alaikum
So much evidence has brought me to understand that the end is not far, at all.
I can just sense it. SubhanAllah it feels like it's here and I'm so scared. I become so weak and terrified for the signs to come. Why? Because I'm guilty of all the sins I've done, and doing. Whenever I see signs my body shakes in fear and soaks with anger. Why? The fear of displeasing Allah, the anger for letting myself down.
The question is,
how do I prepare for 'the end of time' even though it's so hard? I hope you all understand why it's hard for me. I'm a 15 year old girl growing up in the UK surrounded by Fitnah. I have pure intentions inshaAllah but it feels like they all get ruined by shaytan creating them into evil intentions; but I can't blame shaytan, it's all my fault.
I may not be the biggest sinner in the world, though I sometimes look up at the sky and think my sins are too much to even fill the world...
I've let myself down and I don't want to give up. I used to try so hard. I wouldn't take no as an answer. I wouldn't give up praying until I've done the sunnah amount. I felt my imaan. What has happened to me?
And the worst thing of all is - how come wherever I go I see the women getting misguided. All the girls that used to be pious have become opposite inside-out. I fear so much now. Is this a sign of qiyamah? Big amount of misguided girls? Or am I hallucinating... ?
So much evidence has brought me to understand that the end is not far, at all.
I can just sense it. SubhanAllah it feels like it's here and I'm so scared. I become so weak and terrified for the signs to come. Why? Because I'm guilty of all the sins I've done, and doing. Whenever I see signs my body shakes in fear and soaks with anger. Why? The fear of displeasing Allah, the anger for letting myself down.
The question is,
how do I prepare for 'the end of time' even though it's so hard? I hope you all understand why it's hard for me. I'm a 15 year old girl growing up in the UK surrounded by Fitnah. I have pure intentions inshaAllah but it feels like they all get ruined by shaytan creating them into evil intentions; but I can't blame shaytan, it's all my fault.
I may not be the biggest sinner in the world, though I sometimes look up at the sky and think my sins are too much to even fill the world...
I've let myself down and I don't want to give up. I used to try so hard. I wouldn't take no as an answer. I wouldn't give up praying until I've done the sunnah amount. I felt my imaan. What has happened to me?
And the worst thing of all is - how come wherever I go I see the women getting misguided. All the girls that used to be pious have become opposite inside-out. I fear so much now. Is this a sign of qiyamah? Big amount of misguided girls? Or am I hallucinating... ?