hayat84
I'm not what you believe
salam 'alikum to everyone,sincerely.I'd like to greet you,one by one,I'd like one day,to meet your face and share with you what I do here on tti.I ask you a question and I hope it will help me(and yo) to come to a solution.
Among the signs of the End there are 2 ones which recalled my interest..people will give more attentions to dogs than to their dears and homosexuality will be normal into the society.I see with my eyes that people are totally involved in what is out of time and spacewhere will our Ummah go within 30-40 years?You'll say,"Allah knows",it's obvious,but we ,as "poor" innocents in the hands of Allah,how long must we wait before that "sweet wind" will breath over our souls=I'm aware of my choses,I decided to step into Islam and I want not to turn my decision off(forgive my bad english,it's about 9 years since I've had the dyplome,but it was only a sheer of paper).I sometime have the sensation and the wish to left evrything I have and go far away from this mess.I feel breathless,Allah is really testing me so much,to see my despairation come out?What would you do at my place,if you had 5 kids to grow up and a partner who is busy all day long,because he has to provide to the family?
I feel that there is not much time left for me.have you ever felt the necessity to have a break from everything?I ask Allah to forgive my bad intentions,however He is only our creator,He can decide how long we can live,how many times I've hoped not to wake up,because of the badness of this terrestrial life?I see people living like machines,they work like robots,without feelings,heart,cold like the ice,empty.Maybe the life is hard with me,to make me understand that it can't rain forever.The sun in sh Allah will rise over my face,and one day I won't need to log in on tti to share my words with you(who I've never seen),because we'll meet by person.This virtual space can make us closer,but it's like playing a videogame,because the people who read my posts meet me without seeing me.Is this the End?"In That day a hand will come down from the sky and everybody will stare at it.everybody will look at that listen in its own language,regardless from which part of the globe it is".
I hope you've understood my message,I'm confused,tired,but I'll die muslima!
Thank you for spending some time with me
Among the signs of the End there are 2 ones which recalled my interest..people will give more attentions to dogs than to their dears and homosexuality will be normal into the society.I see with my eyes that people are totally involved in what is out of time and spacewhere will our Ummah go within 30-40 years?You'll say,"Allah knows",it's obvious,but we ,as "poor" innocents in the hands of Allah,how long must we wait before that "sweet wind" will breath over our souls=I'm aware of my choses,I decided to step into Islam and I want not to turn my decision off(forgive my bad english,it's about 9 years since I've had the dyplome,but it was only a sheer of paper).I sometime have the sensation and the wish to left evrything I have and go far away from this mess.I feel breathless,Allah is really testing me so much,to see my despairation come out?What would you do at my place,if you had 5 kids to grow up and a partner who is busy all day long,because he has to provide to the family?
I feel that there is not much time left for me.have you ever felt the necessity to have a break from everything?I ask Allah to forgive my bad intentions,however He is only our creator,He can decide how long we can live,how many times I've hoped not to wake up,because of the badness of this terrestrial life?I see people living like machines,they work like robots,without feelings,heart,cold like the ice,empty.Maybe the life is hard with me,to make me understand that it can't rain forever.The sun in sh Allah will rise over my face,and one day I won't need to log in on tti to share my words with you(who I've never seen),because we'll meet by person.This virtual space can make us closer,but it's like playing a videogame,because the people who read my posts meet me without seeing me.Is this the End?"In That day a hand will come down from the sky and everybody will stare at it.everybody will look at that listen in its own language,regardless from which part of the globe it is".
I hope you've understood my message,I'm confused,tired,but I'll die muslima!
Thank you for spending some time with me