I am a convert to Islam and am happy with what I learned on my own. Yes, we have a masque in town, two with the new one built. But all I have seen from the muslims in town is hostility and laughter toward me. There are muslims at school saying I am not a muslim and this even has the non muslims saying the same. I had a sister come to me today with the belief that I was faking and when I gave her my number to contact my she checked it to make sure it was a working number. I have muslims at the store look at me and shake their heads.... I feel so sad at times and cry......... I feel like they don't want me to be a muslim with them. I feel like escaping...... but i don't want to leave Allah.. it hurts my heart to even think about apostasy. someone see me for me and help me.