Salam bros and sisters . . . . I am very much thankfull to allah for everythin . But i hate myself for not obeying him . I hate myself as i am a great and deep sinner. i am fed up of being this way . . . . I have done so many sins in my life, i dont know how will i erase them . . .even if i sit and cry whole day my heart wont feel a bit better . . I am very scared of allah. i dont know how much punishment allah will give me.i dont know what to do . . . I know no matter what i will go astray . . I dont know what i am . I am verysick of myself . . . I dont know what more to write and show my evilness . . . I hate myself ..