Assalaamu alaikum
I always find it much harder when a non muslim who is close to me dies, like one of my family. It saddens me because we pretty much know for sure what theyre going to get no matter how nice they were. And the fact that my actions still could not help them out of it.
It really rips my heart out.
When i was really young I had this dream that all of my family including me were in this like river of blood and guts and stuff and we kept almost drowning. I was the only one to get out of it, my mom, dad and brother were all still in there. It really freaked me out........ It freaked me out even more when i discovered what it really was.......aaaaaarrrrgggghhh...subhanallah, messages at a young age, kinda weird dont ya think?