blisscatcher
New Member
Assalamualaikum.
Im new here, and Im full of hope to find the right path here. It feels great to find a website like this because i found so many people who had been lost in the past , but somehow managed to find the right way. Somehow, i feel connected.
I was born in a Muslim family, but i can say we're not that knowledgeable in Islam to begin with. And I can say we're one broken family.
My dad and my mom are constantly fighting everyday even at this moment I'm writing this. I never felt happy at home anymore, and i don't remember happy times, as a kid, it was pretty lonely.
My studies...I'm at the verge of quitting it. I find it very difficult to cope. I cant even focus any page in the book.
I find it hard to keep up with my friends. That finally i realized, they all were not real friends. They leave me when I'm in difficult times, and suddenly appear when they want convenience.
I used to have a male friend who i always tell my problems to, and he's very good in listening and comforting me, and i felt the happiest time in my life to have someone that able to listen to me. But once i realized that it is haram to have this relationship and furthermore,he's from a different religion, i have to let him go. He understands and now we go our own ways. But now I felt lonelier than ever.
I've realized I've made so many mistake before and I want to start anew. But being lonely is tough. I hope i can be stronger with the aid of this site. I pray a lot of times to Allah please let me be happy to go through these times. And now, all i have is Him to confide to. I just hope He's not mad at me. I'm trying my best to make Him happy.
And I also admire all the brothers and sisters who could fight their way through despite being lonely in their own home.
Im new here, and Im full of hope to find the right path here. It feels great to find a website like this because i found so many people who had been lost in the past , but somehow managed to find the right way. Somehow, i feel connected.
I was born in a Muslim family, but i can say we're not that knowledgeable in Islam to begin with. And I can say we're one broken family.
My dad and my mom are constantly fighting everyday even at this moment I'm writing this. I never felt happy at home anymore, and i don't remember happy times, as a kid, it was pretty lonely.
My studies...I'm at the verge of quitting it. I find it very difficult to cope. I cant even focus any page in the book.
I find it hard to keep up with my friends. That finally i realized, they all were not real friends. They leave me when I'm in difficult times, and suddenly appear when they want convenience.
I used to have a male friend who i always tell my problems to, and he's very good in listening and comforting me, and i felt the happiest time in my life to have someone that able to listen to me. But once i realized that it is haram to have this relationship and furthermore,he's from a different religion, i have to let him go. He understands and now we go our own ways. But now I felt lonelier than ever.
I've realized I've made so many mistake before and I want to start anew. But being lonely is tough. I hope i can be stronger with the aid of this site. I pray a lot of times to Allah please let me be happy to go through these times. And now, all i have is Him to confide to. I just hope He's not mad at me. I'm trying my best to make Him happy.
And I also admire all the brothers and sisters who could fight their way through despite being lonely in their own home.