Salam brothers and sisters,
Sorry for a late reply. I should have been more specific about my wording, I wasen't OFFICIALLY diagnosed with paranoia, but ever since my first illness I have always been thinking I have a disease of some sort because I was on the verge of death once. I had been thinking about having heart disease after that because the doctors said that all the antibiotics I had could have TEMPORARILY altered the way my heart functioned. I probably diden't hear the word temporary and thats where heart disease came from. After thinking about it too much, I said I was having a stroke because I was hyping up from heart disease. I felt as if my brain was about to explode. After cooling down, I get bronchitis and have a really hard time breathing, now I thought I have asthma.THEN I get hyped out, think im having a stroke, for getting tense from thinking about asthma. Then after figuring out that my symptoms DONT match that of a stroke, I start getting dizzy, constantly tired , headaches then I thought I had brain cancer. I contacted a bright sister on the forum and she told me I probably have mono. So I do some research, find out that my symptoms DO closely match that of mono, but that leukemia actually has symptoms similar to that, but is a FAR more serious disease, so I think I have that. I start to cry, I start to heat up, I cant concentrate, I go to school sad, and I feel as if I had high blood pressure as the blood rushed to my brain. I think about it way too much, but it's as if this mentaility ONLY comes in when it comes to my health. Can one be paranoid about being paranoid, without really being paranoid? This whole month and from mid October i've been feeling this way, that I have some sort of illness, sameh'allah, death scares me to death, if that makes sense. I just have a feeling that if I die, I will go to hell. I use to be the sport and girlfriend type of guy until I returned to Islam. It's as if I still have something to makeup before I can die.
Salam friends, and thank you all so much for your responses.