assalamu aleikum brother hareem, in short..
Allah swt made me convert alhamdulilah, but I started looking for islam when I wanted trying to find out why some people wear hijaab and others don't and why the muslims on tv were talking about peacefull things (it was before 9/11) and in my town, they were mostly not. I left it for a while and a few days later i woke up, nothing special had happened and I rushed to the library to read about islam alhamdoelilah, when i was reading them in the library i remeber thinking: what am i doing here, reading about islam??? I had no special reason for it, now I know it was the qadr of Allah. When I read the 40 hadith from an-nawawi I knew this was what I always believed in, i always thought of Jesus as a prophet, later on, while I was reading books about islam vs. christianity I realised that i had always believed as a muslim, i didn't even know that christians see Jesus as a god. It went on from there, I met a converted muslima on the net and she asked me to come to the mosque in Amsterdam, i liked the idea, because that is not very near to my place, I went there and she picked me up at the trainstation in her in full hijaab, it scared me a little bit because i thought: is that what i must do? i asked her and she told me it's a process that you build slowly and she told me to take my time and go as fast as i feel is right for me, I came in the mosque and everybody was soo nice and happy that I was there, i felt so much love immediatly, I listened to a lecture given by this amazing woman who was also converted and been thrue a lot, she had lost her child, her husband abducted her to Egypt. She hadn't seen her for 6 years, but she prayed to Allah swt to get her back one day, she married again and wanted to make hijraa, then her exhusband suddenly turned up and gave her her daughter back,Allahu akbar!!! This story, the lecture and the overwhelming feelings i got when I entered the mosque, made me really love islam and practising muslims, i took my shahada, when i said I would, Sisters started crying, i said my shahada and here I am five years later, in the same clothes as the scary girl I met at the trainstation hihi. May allah swt reward them.