My dearest Asja, it is always nice to hear from you. And i agree with everything you have said, and even at times now i think of leaving, but alhamduillah, what makes me stay, is souls like yours, and very few other sisters.
It is very uncomfortable when others don't speak to you with decency, when they are the opposite gender especailly, and i have noticed personally myself that some souls do not have any shame whilst they write, and some things shouldn't be said, yes we are all brothers and sisters in Islam, and there is nothing wrong with joking about, just as long as it doesn't go outside of the ruling of islam. But brothers should stick to brothers, and sisters to sisters, i like to have a laugh, but i prefer to share with sisters, not brothers, they don't have this right. Many don't understand this, and just let people be, and my job here is only to please Allah, by giving du'as to others, and trying to give best advice all the time.
Alhamduillah, i know you understand this very well, and that is why i am so close to you, and also because you are very close to Allah, masha'Allah your soul is very beautiful, and I love to read your words, which make my eyes water.
Ya Allah, please bless my sister Asja, she truly is very close to You, and let me meet this soul that is close to You, so i too can beocme a little closer to You, for my heart doesn't yearn for anything else. Ya Allah, forgive my sister, and make her one of those who will be in Your shade, and never let her eyes remain dry, and let her always be in tears remembering You. Aameen!!!!
Ukhti, these words are from my heart, and i mean every word. I love u dearly for the sake of Allah. I am always here for you.