Seeker_2601
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I want to believe. I do bear witness IF there is a god, then it is allah alone and that if hes real, muhammed would be his messenger but I cant feel him. I took the advice on here and tried to pray to him to give me a feeling, to give me a dream to make me itch or giggle but nothing. I felt like a fool with his head on the floor mumbling to himself...Is there a feeling? Do you get goosebumps or feel warmth or calm or anything when you realize that you believe in the creator of all things?
I want to so desperatly but I feel nothing. I'm scared to change who I am even though, assuming he's real, he would reward me. I dont want to lose my friendships, I've got family members who HATE Islam because they believe how I used to, that you're all terrorists. I try to explain to them but no. They all say you worship a black box and lick the floor and pray to muhammed. I told them the importance of Mecca and told them the story of Muhammed and they all just got upset with me because they thought I was going to become a muslim. Every time I pick up the Quran I just know that there is an answer it in for whatever little problem Im going through and I ask myself "How are the miracles of the Quran possible if it was not revealed by the one true god?" my answer is, "I dont know" It's quite frustrating really. I'm not sure if I believe in God, but I have read his miracles first hand. Like the one example I was given with the flower. How did it come from nothing? How is the earth at the exact posistion it needs to support life? There is no way that there are this many random things that fit perfectly. How do I feel nothing?
Now I'll share with you, complete strangers, a dream I had a few months ago.
I was in Mecca, at the Kaaba and there was an odd structure built around it. Much like a roman colloseum but shorter (roughly the same height as the kaaba itself). I was in a large group of people and we were all terribly upset by this new structure surrounding the kaaba until myself and another man, who I have no recolection of ever meeting or seeing anywhere else simply lifted up the new structure by its base (even though it was made of stone) and flipped it up over and away from the kaaba. We all, at the same time called out La Illaha ilallah (forgive me if thats spelled wrong), cheered, and then I woke up.
Does God speak to us through dreams? Could anyone think of a reason for the odd structure around the kaaba and why the group I was in was so upset about it? Or how easily the gentleman and I simply tossed the new structure out of the way? By the way, I dont see this as a form of divination, I just thought I saw somewhere that God speaks through dreams occasionally and was wondering if anyone here had thoughts.
What is it like to believe? What is it like to sacrifice something you know you'd enjoy now, for something much greater after death? What is it like to know he's watching and caring for you and that he'll take care of you, according to his plan? Is it a logical feeling? Emotional? something you cant describe? I'm just so sick of the lack of feeling towards anything but myself.
I want to so desperatly but I feel nothing. I'm scared to change who I am even though, assuming he's real, he would reward me. I dont want to lose my friendships, I've got family members who HATE Islam because they believe how I used to, that you're all terrorists. I try to explain to them but no. They all say you worship a black box and lick the floor and pray to muhammed. I told them the importance of Mecca and told them the story of Muhammed and they all just got upset with me because they thought I was going to become a muslim. Every time I pick up the Quran I just know that there is an answer it in for whatever little problem Im going through and I ask myself "How are the miracles of the Quran possible if it was not revealed by the one true god?" my answer is, "I dont know" It's quite frustrating really. I'm not sure if I believe in God, but I have read his miracles first hand. Like the one example I was given with the flower. How did it come from nothing? How is the earth at the exact posistion it needs to support life? There is no way that there are this many random things that fit perfectly. How do I feel nothing?
Now I'll share with you, complete strangers, a dream I had a few months ago.
I was in Mecca, at the Kaaba and there was an odd structure built around it. Much like a roman colloseum but shorter (roughly the same height as the kaaba itself). I was in a large group of people and we were all terribly upset by this new structure surrounding the kaaba until myself and another man, who I have no recolection of ever meeting or seeing anywhere else simply lifted up the new structure by its base (even though it was made of stone) and flipped it up over and away from the kaaba. We all, at the same time called out La Illaha ilallah (forgive me if thats spelled wrong), cheered, and then I woke up.
Does God speak to us through dreams? Could anyone think of a reason for the odd structure around the kaaba and why the group I was in was so upset about it? Or how easily the gentleman and I simply tossed the new structure out of the way? By the way, I dont see this as a form of divination, I just thought I saw somewhere that God speaks through dreams occasionally and was wondering if anyone here had thoughts.
What is it like to believe? What is it like to sacrifice something you know you'd enjoy now, for something much greater after death? What is it like to know he's watching and caring for you and that he'll take care of you, according to his plan? Is it a logical feeling? Emotional? something you cant describe? I'm just so sick of the lack of feeling towards anything but myself.