Abdul Hasib
Student of Knowledge
Assalamu Aleykum Warahmatullahi Wabarakaathuh dear brothers and sisters. May this post find you all in the best state of health and Iman, Ameen. *sigh* It's been 5 years since I first joined TTI, and Subhanallah, things have changed. When I first joined TTI, I was around 12 years old. A little boy, someone who liked ranting alot and who wanted to be upon the Deen. Now, I'm 17 years and I've changed from that time. Alhamdulillah, I've become more mature, and I understand that I have a responsibility to Allah (SWT), to his Deen, and to this Ummah.
Anyway (this message goes to those brothers and sisters who I've known/talked to for years): I found out a few days ago that I'm suffer from an anxiety disorder. It's not that I'm crazy or mental, but it's just that I often feel stressed/upset about life and due to that, I end up becoming quiet and not wanting to talk to others around me (like my brothers/sisters on TTI, and the brothers that I know around me), and that's why weeks/months would pass but I would not log into TTI or reply to a message that a brother/sister would send me: it's because I feel too stressed out, sad, emotional, and upset (and it all comes from my anxiety).
And for that, I just wanted to say Sorry. Sorry dear brothers and sisters, that I wasn't able to be a good little brother to you all. The love that I feel in my heart for you guys is such that I can't explain it in words, nor can I express that love to you guys (and many times, my heart cries whenever I remember the great times that I've had over here).
But I hope that Allah (SWT) will accept all the duas that I make for you guys (for the Duniyah and Akirah) and Inshallah, we will all die with Iman and I'll be able to see all of you under the Shade of Allah (SWT)'s Arsh on Yawmul-Qiyamah, and, Inshallah, I'll be able to see that joy in your faces when I see all of you in Jannah, which will be the coolness of my eyes and my heart.
-Your little brother, Abdul Hasib al Hasn
Anyway (this message goes to those brothers and sisters who I've known/talked to for years): I found out a few days ago that I'm suffer from an anxiety disorder. It's not that I'm crazy or mental, but it's just that I often feel stressed/upset about life and due to that, I end up becoming quiet and not wanting to talk to others around me (like my brothers/sisters on TTI, and the brothers that I know around me), and that's why weeks/months would pass but I would not log into TTI or reply to a message that a brother/sister would send me: it's because I feel too stressed out, sad, emotional, and upset (and it all comes from my anxiety).
And for that, I just wanted to say Sorry. Sorry dear brothers and sisters, that I wasn't able to be a good little brother to you all. The love that I feel in my heart for you guys is such that I can't explain it in words, nor can I express that love to you guys (and many times, my heart cries whenever I remember the great times that I've had over here).
But I hope that Allah (SWT) will accept all the duas that I make for you guys (for the Duniyah and Akirah) and Inshallah, we will all die with Iman and I'll be able to see all of you under the Shade of Allah (SWT)'s Arsh on Yawmul-Qiyamah, and, Inshallah, I'll be able to see that joy in your faces when I see all of you in Jannah, which will be the coolness of my eyes and my heart.
-Your little brother, Abdul Hasib al Hasn