:salam2: everyone
Hope everyone is well. Recently i feel like I need help with my iman because i feel it lowering everyday more and more,i am 16 and im getting tempted by things and being influenced too much by just everyone. Just to let you know how serious it got i said a curse word not that long ago, and i had never said a curse word for almost a year, and i feel alot of things just closing in on me. I enjoy listening to the music on the bus now even though i had stopped listening to music for a while. Recently i had watched a movie with my friend and i looked down at the bad part and my christian friend was laughing at me and my muslim friend was just looking at the screen and thats what made me have second thoughts of my muslim friends who i thought were good muslims that would help remind me of my religious obligations but that is not working to well... My family also doesnt understand the consequences of haram food (they think just pork is bad) and they yell at me when i try and tell them i dont want any food.
I feel like shaytaan is just getting harder and harder and harder to deal with everyday and its weakening my iman immensely, i only started started being a practicing Muslim after this last ramadan where i felt like Allah really did exist and changed life to a complete opposite of before (bad to good). I pray everyday for help but its not helping. I want to go to the mosque but i dont have a car and most of the time my family are just lazy or out somewhere else. In my opinion after few months of becoming a very good practicing Muslim i turned into a complete mess in the last month. Can someone recommend some things that will get me back on the straight path, i seriously dont know what to do. I feel that Allah(swt) is displeased with me and i want to change that.
Please pray for me if you see this post, it means alot..
Jazakallah Khairan everyone.
Hope everyone is well. Recently i feel like I need help with my iman because i feel it lowering everyday more and more,i am 16 and im getting tempted by things and being influenced too much by just everyone. Just to let you know how serious it got i said a curse word not that long ago, and i had never said a curse word for almost a year, and i feel alot of things just closing in on me. I enjoy listening to the music on the bus now even though i had stopped listening to music for a while. Recently i had watched a movie with my friend and i looked down at the bad part and my christian friend was laughing at me and my muslim friend was just looking at the screen and thats what made me have second thoughts of my muslim friends who i thought were good muslims that would help remind me of my religious obligations but that is not working to well... My family also doesnt understand the consequences of haram food (they think just pork is bad) and they yell at me when i try and tell them i dont want any food.
I feel like shaytaan is just getting harder and harder and harder to deal with everyday and its weakening my iman immensely, i only started started being a practicing Muslim after this last ramadan where i felt like Allah really did exist and changed life to a complete opposite of before (bad to good). I pray everyday for help but its not helping. I want to go to the mosque but i dont have a car and most of the time my family are just lazy or out somewhere else. In my opinion after few months of becoming a very good practicing Muslim i turned into a complete mess in the last month. Can someone recommend some things that will get me back on the straight path, i seriously dont know what to do. I feel that Allah(swt) is displeased with me and i want to change that.
Please pray for me if you see this post, it means alot..
Jazakallah Khairan everyone.