palestine
Servant of Allah
asalamu alaykum wrwb, dear sisters and brothers in islam i know it's been a while since i got online. but today i need your advice more then ever. i'm having a few problems and i have tried ignoring them or at least being patient but that's not working. i feel that my family hates me, including my father and mother. everyone in my family keeps telling me that i'm the problem, and they blame me for everything that goes wrong. if i have an arguement with one of my siblings my parents automatically take their side becuase they're older than me. i feel unjustified. i know this seems like nothing but this has been going on for a while and i feel hated in my own home. when my parents are trying to talk to me they have to say it in a rude way that hurts me deep down. they take all their anger out on me. and everytime they're angry they tell me that i'm the problem, that their disappointed they had a daughter like me, and that they wish they could live and die somewhere else where i'm not. this breaks my heart and they throw around these words as if i have no feelings. i honestly am the best child they had because i always listen to them and do as they say and i try to respect them as much as possible. also i'm the one who helps my oldest sister with her children when none of the other siblings do this. every break i get and every single day after school i'm the one who asks my mom to rest and take over the chores in the family. yet again i'm the one they blame everything for. and another problem is that my father won't even let me have muslim white friends. and so i make my da'wah secretly otherwise i will be in trouble. please help me. asalamu alaykm