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I've been using this one book to learn the prayers and its probably not the best of books, i'm sure there's always better ones, but between it and Youtube ( I didnt even LIKE Youtube before i started looking at reverting ) I've been learning more and more of the pronunciations and the correct ways to go about things etc.
Anyway... there was one surah that is used in the book that i wasn't famillar w/ and it was 114... its short I have to say, but ... even so I'm really proud of myself while i wasn't holding all the correct syllables as long as i should I had the pronunciation maybe 90 % there without hearing it. Thats such an improvement from where i started when i was learning things... I'm so happy... I know this may seem stupid but some things are finally starting to come together at least in my head if no where else and to me that means a lot....
I had finally started setting a more actual date for saying my shahada ... I may have to push it back about two weeks because i really want to discuss this w/ my therapist before i do. he's been supportive of my study and has absolutely no issues... and i think i posted even taught comparative religions and spent some time in egypt ... he's about as well rounded a therapist as i think i've ever seen.. but I want to have that support here before i do it. he's my only support in person of that.... sad isnt it...?
but there's some serious issues that i have to discuss w/ him tuesday and so i may have to push it back a week or two... I really hope no one will look ill at me for that.... and trust me ... I wish those other issues didnt exist... but they do... ...
but i'm getting there. Once i realized why there was a different surah in my book than on the youtube prayer... I really felt like it was starting to come together and now this and so i feel in some ways even more so.
inshallah things will get better.
serena
I've been using this one book to learn the prayers and its probably not the best of books, i'm sure there's always better ones, but between it and Youtube ( I didnt even LIKE Youtube before i started looking at reverting ) I've been learning more and more of the pronunciations and the correct ways to go about things etc.
Anyway... there was one surah that is used in the book that i wasn't famillar w/ and it was 114... its short I have to say, but ... even so I'm really proud of myself while i wasn't holding all the correct syllables as long as i should I had the pronunciation maybe 90 % there without hearing it. Thats such an improvement from where i started when i was learning things... I'm so happy... I know this may seem stupid but some things are finally starting to come together at least in my head if no where else and to me that means a lot....
I had finally started setting a more actual date for saying my shahada ... I may have to push it back about two weeks because i really want to discuss this w/ my therapist before i do. he's been supportive of my study and has absolutely no issues... and i think i posted even taught comparative religions and spent some time in egypt ... he's about as well rounded a therapist as i think i've ever seen.. but I want to have that support here before i do it. he's my only support in person of that.... sad isnt it...?
but there's some serious issues that i have to discuss w/ him tuesday and so i may have to push it back a week or two... I really hope no one will look ill at me for that.... and trust me ... I wish those other issues didnt exist... but they do... ...
but i'm getting there. Once i realized why there was a different surah in my book than on the youtube prayer... I really felt like it was starting to come together and now this and so i feel in some ways even more so.
inshallah things will get better.
serena