inquizator
Junior Member
Salam Alykum, Peace to you.
I am an old man who became Muslim in 2003 and not good at spelling so forgive my errors. Prior I was a devout Athiest until one day I looked at my feet and saw entire civilizations dwelling in one square meter and it hit me hard "there has to be a God".
I was raised Catholic but never could believe God needed a son to be able to forgive man.
I went to a Mosque , the only one locally and there were two Brothers there by happenstance and the door was locked. One opened the door and greeted me with Salam Alykum, which I learned to write from a Libyan. I knew the reply but it took a while to remember it-"Alykum Salam" and I was allowed in.
It was almost time for mid-day prayer after we had spoken for a while and was asked to watch them pray, to which I refused and said that I would join them in prayer but not watch. I made my Shahadah and then prayed. I didn't know what I already believed was a Religion. After we talked some more and I began to attend jumah. The Khutbah was in Arabic which I disliked b/c we're all in America and should speak English or American. I'm originally from the UK.
I decided to give up all my old friends in hope I would know and make better ones. In 9 years I have no freinds and none of my old ones left.
I'm known for asking uncomfortable questions and being overly blunt. I once asked a Brother why is it that when one converts to Islam they instantly want to become an Arab instead of being who they are? "Choice" was the answer that I didn't see myself. I ask from what I observe and don't understand.
I brought up that I could not understand the Khutbah and I believed there was no point in coming and it was changed to English.
There are no other American Brothers there much less those my age and felt as though I landed in a strange land and still do.
I have been told that I see things clearly and have no problem pointing out injustice when I see it and will not accept just feeling bad about it. That I think may have cost me making new friends but don't know. I really think it's the cultural differences. I could not feel more alone at our mosque and nothing has changed in all these years. After Jumah there are groups gathering speaking a tongue I can not understand so I just leave.
I'm told that I understand Islam better than most people who were raised Muslim and I believe that converts just may strive harder to know more but I don't know.
I can no longer afford to drive the distance to attend Jumah, so I don't go often.
After I became Muslim my entire world fell apart including a car accident which has left me disabled. This I know to be a trial from Allah and accept it as such. I went from having wealth and health to losing both including my Sons which have grown up and seem to have forgotten who raised them and have no wife.
Life has become very hard but I have not given up. All I have left are the Angels on my sides and an inquisitive mind, plus my Faith.
I consider myself as a Human Being who is trying to be the best Human I can be knowing I will return to who created me.
I do not post much but this is me.
Many Thanks~!
I am an old man who became Muslim in 2003 and not good at spelling so forgive my errors. Prior I was a devout Athiest until one day I looked at my feet and saw entire civilizations dwelling in one square meter and it hit me hard "there has to be a God".
I was raised Catholic but never could believe God needed a son to be able to forgive man.
I went to a Mosque , the only one locally and there were two Brothers there by happenstance and the door was locked. One opened the door and greeted me with Salam Alykum, which I learned to write from a Libyan. I knew the reply but it took a while to remember it-"Alykum Salam" and I was allowed in.
It was almost time for mid-day prayer after we had spoken for a while and was asked to watch them pray, to which I refused and said that I would join them in prayer but not watch. I made my Shahadah and then prayed. I didn't know what I already believed was a Religion. After we talked some more and I began to attend jumah. The Khutbah was in Arabic which I disliked b/c we're all in America and should speak English or American. I'm originally from the UK.
I decided to give up all my old friends in hope I would know and make better ones. In 9 years I have no freinds and none of my old ones left.
I'm known for asking uncomfortable questions and being overly blunt. I once asked a Brother why is it that when one converts to Islam they instantly want to become an Arab instead of being who they are? "Choice" was the answer that I didn't see myself. I ask from what I observe and don't understand.
I brought up that I could not understand the Khutbah and I believed there was no point in coming and it was changed to English.
There are no other American Brothers there much less those my age and felt as though I landed in a strange land and still do.
I have been told that I see things clearly and have no problem pointing out injustice when I see it and will not accept just feeling bad about it. That I think may have cost me making new friends but don't know. I really think it's the cultural differences. I could not feel more alone at our mosque and nothing has changed in all these years. After Jumah there are groups gathering speaking a tongue I can not understand so I just leave.
I'm told that I understand Islam better than most people who were raised Muslim and I believe that converts just may strive harder to know more but I don't know.
I can no longer afford to drive the distance to attend Jumah, so I don't go often.
After I became Muslim my entire world fell apart including a car accident which has left me disabled. This I know to be a trial from Allah and accept it as such. I went from having wealth and health to losing both including my Sons which have grown up and seem to have forgotten who raised them and have no wife.
Life has become very hard but I have not given up. All I have left are the Angels on my sides and an inquisitive mind, plus my Faith.
I consider myself as a Human Being who is trying to be the best Human I can be knowing I will return to who created me.
I do not post much but this is me.
Many Thanks~!