somewhatinspired
Junior Member
ok.
i don't know if anyone has been following any of the posts i have posted within the last few months.
but my wife and i are new Muslims.
we married right after she converted to Islam, (we were dating)
and we are both 19.
well, we live in a rural area in my fathers house and we pay him rent.
we have been working for a year since we got out of high school, and we are no further ahead than we were before.
i have managed to take a few classes at the community college.
not getting ahead, we have decided to move to Tampa Florida ( we live in palm coast)
we are trying to secure an apartment that is about a mile away from the university of south Florida (usf) should be living there within the next month if all works out.
i sold my vehicle to pay for moving expenses and secure a few months rent.
i bought a bicycle. and i am planning to ride it to school(if i ever get there) and work.
my wife has a car we will share.
we both work here, she secured a job there, i haven't yet.
i am becoming more and more depressed thinking about having to ride my bike around town.
i am very sensitive to the humidity and Tampa is really humid.
i moved there because the university has a strong msa.
and there are lots of Muslims in the area.
i planned on using the bus system but when i got there i found out the nearest bus stop was the university itself(like a mile away)
there is no way we could afford two cars living on our own.
and my mother expects me to go to college and work.
and i have promised to provide my wife a way to study (she has a scholarship)
and i feel sicker and sicker as the time comes to move.
i don't want to go to class all sweaty,
and the nearest businesses are further away.
i want job that has air conditioning and a relaxed environment so i can focus on school. but everything seems far away, and the weather is really hot.
i have driven a car for a long time.
i just dont hink i can do it.
but it is to late and i am really becoming depressed.
i am afraid i just wont go to school.
and i am afraid that i will fail everyone.
my wife is happy because she has a good job there, and a scholarship, and a car.
and i am finding it hard to be happy at all.
i wake up and feel like i wish i would never wake up at all.
i physically feel sick at work, and i cant stop thinking about it.
this is all kind of personal, but i don't know who else to talk about it with.
ps. all advise is welcome but please don't tell me to get used to the heat.
i cant,i suffered from this as a child, and it doesn't go away.the only thing that helped was using a car with air conditioning.
and also if anyone here lives in Tampa(near usf) tell me i would like to ask some questions pertaining to the area.
i don't know if anyone has been following any of the posts i have posted within the last few months.
but my wife and i are new Muslims.
we married right after she converted to Islam, (we were dating)
and we are both 19.
well, we live in a rural area in my fathers house and we pay him rent.
we have been working for a year since we got out of high school, and we are no further ahead than we were before.
i have managed to take a few classes at the community college.
not getting ahead, we have decided to move to Tampa Florida ( we live in palm coast)
we are trying to secure an apartment that is about a mile away from the university of south Florida (usf) should be living there within the next month if all works out.
i sold my vehicle to pay for moving expenses and secure a few months rent.
i bought a bicycle. and i am planning to ride it to school(if i ever get there) and work.
my wife has a car we will share.
we both work here, she secured a job there, i haven't yet.
i am becoming more and more depressed thinking about having to ride my bike around town.
i am very sensitive to the humidity and Tampa is really humid.
i moved there because the university has a strong msa.
and there are lots of Muslims in the area.
i planned on using the bus system but when i got there i found out the nearest bus stop was the university itself(like a mile away)
there is no way we could afford two cars living on our own.
and my mother expects me to go to college and work.
and i have promised to provide my wife a way to study (she has a scholarship)
and i feel sicker and sicker as the time comes to move.
i don't want to go to class all sweaty,
and the nearest businesses are further away.
i want job that has air conditioning and a relaxed environment so i can focus on school. but everything seems far away, and the weather is really hot.
i have driven a car for a long time.
i just dont hink i can do it.
but it is to late and i am really becoming depressed.
i am afraid i just wont go to school.
and i am afraid that i will fail everyone.
my wife is happy because she has a good job there, and a scholarship, and a car.
and i am finding it hard to be happy at all.
i wake up and feel like i wish i would never wake up at all.
i physically feel sick at work, and i cant stop thinking about it.
this is all kind of personal, but i don't know who else to talk about it with.
ps. all advise is welcome but please don't tell me to get used to the heat.
i cant,i suffered from this as a child, and it doesn't go away.the only thing that helped was using a car with air conditioning.
and also if anyone here lives in Tampa(near usf) tell me i would like to ask some questions pertaining to the area.