salam aleykum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatu
I will introduce myself with a few words. I'm from Holland but I'm living in Turkey since a while. Many years I was christian, but when I grow up I was not satisfied anymore in christianity. Too many questions I had and no one who could give me an answer. When I was 40 years old I leaved christianity forever. Many years after that there was no any religion in my life. I didnt hear anything about Islam. Maybe cause I was living in a little village in the east of Holland without any muslims. I didnt now anything about Islam, only the usual things from the media.
Than I decided to have holidays in a country where I didnt go before.
My family was in real shock when I told them that I want to go to Jordan.
In their eyes it was a very dangerous country with all this Arabs.
They couldnt stop me, I had to go! I had already my ticket to Amman en there was no one who was able to stop me to go there. Oh, my mam was very angry, but I told her that I was an adult woman and also my son was not happy about my decision. So, in the early spring of 2004 I went to this country. I didnt know anyone there and also I didnt know anything about this country except what I found on internet.
After a short time I met there good moslimfriends and they told me about Islam. I was so happy that my friends were able to give me all the answers I had, and many times I had to cry because deep in my heart I knew Allah called me. He touched me with his Love. He touched me with the Truth. Thatswhy I had to go to Jordan. Thatswhy I met my muslimfriends.
I was in love, in love with Islam. Everyday, every moment, I said, Alhamdullilah. And this love is growing, every day more, every day deeper.
I didnt want to go back to Holland, my wish was to stay in Jordan near my Palestinian muslimfriends and it was also their wish. I felt myself sick when I was thinking about that I have to go back to Holland. Alone, without any muslimsfriend in my area, in my village. But I had to go back, it was not possible to stay, but I promissed my friends and myself that I will be back very soon.
After one month I went again to Jordan and in company with my friends I said the shahada. I cant wait any longer. I wanted to be muslim. Immidiately I want to wear my hijab. I asked my friends to teach me about everything. I want to pray and all the time I was asking about Islam and the rulers of Islam. It was like I was a dry sponge who needed water, and I'm still have this feeling.
My friend teached me about all what a new muslim have to know. I stayed with them 3 months and it was a wonderful amazing time, an amazing family with lovely kids. In that year I went again to Jordan. And also the year after that 3 times.
In that time I was single and all the time alone in Holland. I did a lot dua the next few years and Allah accepted my prayers. He sent me a good moslimbrother from Turkey, Alhamdullilah. A year ago we married and I leaved Holland to share my life with my husband in Turkey.
Ofcourse my mom didnt like I leaved Holland. She is angry because I converted to Islam, she is angry because I went to Turkey, she is angry that I married a muslim. I explained her many times what is Islam, but till now she cant accept. You can understand that I feel sad about this and I do a lot dua for her and my son.
Every day I say, Alhamdullilah, thank You Allah, for all You gave me. For the good things and the bad things, because i learned a lot from this.
My story is not as short as I wanted. In real its more big, but I think I give you all an impression how I became to Islam.
May Allah give you all the best in your life and may Allah be pleased with all my brothers and sisters in Islam.
wa salam aleykum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuhu.
I will introduce myself with a few words. I'm from Holland but I'm living in Turkey since a while. Many years I was christian, but when I grow up I was not satisfied anymore in christianity. Too many questions I had and no one who could give me an answer. When I was 40 years old I leaved christianity forever. Many years after that there was no any religion in my life. I didnt hear anything about Islam. Maybe cause I was living in a little village in the east of Holland without any muslims. I didnt now anything about Islam, only the usual things from the media.
Than I decided to have holidays in a country where I didnt go before.
My family was in real shock when I told them that I want to go to Jordan.
In their eyes it was a very dangerous country with all this Arabs.
They couldnt stop me, I had to go! I had already my ticket to Amman en there was no one who was able to stop me to go there. Oh, my mam was very angry, but I told her that I was an adult woman and also my son was not happy about my decision. So, in the early spring of 2004 I went to this country. I didnt know anyone there and also I didnt know anything about this country except what I found on internet.
After a short time I met there good moslimfriends and they told me about Islam. I was so happy that my friends were able to give me all the answers I had, and many times I had to cry because deep in my heart I knew Allah called me. He touched me with his Love. He touched me with the Truth. Thatswhy I had to go to Jordan. Thatswhy I met my muslimfriends.
I was in love, in love with Islam. Everyday, every moment, I said, Alhamdullilah. And this love is growing, every day more, every day deeper.
I didnt want to go back to Holland, my wish was to stay in Jordan near my Palestinian muslimfriends and it was also their wish. I felt myself sick when I was thinking about that I have to go back to Holland. Alone, without any muslimsfriend in my area, in my village. But I had to go back, it was not possible to stay, but I promissed my friends and myself that I will be back very soon.
After one month I went again to Jordan and in company with my friends I said the shahada. I cant wait any longer. I wanted to be muslim. Immidiately I want to wear my hijab. I asked my friends to teach me about everything. I want to pray and all the time I was asking about Islam and the rulers of Islam. It was like I was a dry sponge who needed water, and I'm still have this feeling.
My friend teached me about all what a new muslim have to know. I stayed with them 3 months and it was a wonderful amazing time, an amazing family with lovely kids. In that year I went again to Jordan. And also the year after that 3 times.
In that time I was single and all the time alone in Holland. I did a lot dua the next few years and Allah accepted my prayers. He sent me a good moslimbrother from Turkey, Alhamdullilah. A year ago we married and I leaved Holland to share my life with my husband in Turkey.
Ofcourse my mom didnt like I leaved Holland. She is angry because I converted to Islam, she is angry because I went to Turkey, she is angry that I married a muslim. I explained her many times what is Islam, but till now she cant accept. You can understand that I feel sad about this and I do a lot dua for her and my son.
Every day I say, Alhamdullilah, thank You Allah, for all You gave me. For the good things and the bad things, because i learned a lot from this.
My story is not as short as I wanted. In real its more big, but I think I give you all an impression how I became to Islam.
May Allah give you all the best in your life and may Allah be pleased with all my brothers and sisters in Islam.
wa salam aleykum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuhu.
Alhamdulillaah
