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OntheWayOf ALLAH
Assalam Alaykum
I tried a new style for me, I hope you accept and like this also
September 2006
Salam to whoever reading this now,
I am bored nowadays; you can not guess it, too much. I feel myself lonely, in all meaning of loneliness. Listen, it is passing in the song now “Goodbye my friends.” Do I have anyone to call like that?
It seems I have only my emaan as my lover, friend and supporter. My heart is in fire... I don’t know what happened to me... Everything is far from me and how they are so stranger to me. I am alone in this frightening world. I don’t have someone to hold my hand when I collapse... These feelings have made me broken slowly until today; however they are destroying my soul now. My pains turned to incurable. I feel the life is testing me, yet I get afraid to not be able to pass that exam.
Everything makes me sad. If a bird comes to my window, I can cry with the idea of it will fly soon. I am afraid. I don’t want to think it will go on like these days. I have something broken inside of me therefore it hurts whole my heart, spirit.
…
March 2007
Assalam Alaykum Wa Rahmatullah Wa Barakatuh
Listen to our speech:
He: Are you angry?
Me: No, only hopeless.
He: Do you want to wear hijab?
Me: Yeah
He: Do you want to learn Arabic and understand Quran?
Me: Yeah
He: Do you want to gain other life?
Me: Yeah. Then?
He: I will be your key for all these.
Ya Allah was the sun so bright anytime like today before ... he read me Quran yesterday, the same as my dreams. He read the surah al Rum, he said he loves and memorized that surah. Now we are in the race who will memorize the surah al Rahman first…
with my whole respect to all members
I tried a new style for me, I hope you accept and like this also
September 2006
Salam to whoever reading this now,
I am bored nowadays; you can not guess it, too much. I feel myself lonely, in all meaning of loneliness. Listen, it is passing in the song now “Goodbye my friends.” Do I have anyone to call like that?
It seems I have only my emaan as my lover, friend and supporter. My heart is in fire... I don’t know what happened to me... Everything is far from me and how they are so stranger to me. I am alone in this frightening world. I don’t have someone to hold my hand when I collapse... These feelings have made me broken slowly until today; however they are destroying my soul now. My pains turned to incurable. I feel the life is testing me, yet I get afraid to not be able to pass that exam.
Everything makes me sad. If a bird comes to my window, I can cry with the idea of it will fly soon. I am afraid. I don’t want to think it will go on like these days. I have something broken inside of me therefore it hurts whole my heart, spirit.
…
March 2007
Assalam Alaykum Wa Rahmatullah Wa Barakatuh
Listen to our speech:
He: Are you angry?
Me: No, only hopeless.
He: Do you want to wear hijab?
Me: Yeah
He: Do you want to learn Arabic and understand Quran?
Me: Yeah
He: Do you want to gain other life?
Me: Yeah. Then?
He: I will be your key for all these.
Ya Allah was the sun so bright anytime like today before ... he read me Quran yesterday, the same as my dreams. He read the surah al Rum, he said he loves and memorized that surah. Now we are in the race who will memorize the surah al Rahman first…
with my whole respect to all members

