Just one week since Ramadan finished and ifind myself sinking back into depression
during Ramadan itried to stay calm to focus on fasting prayer reading quran,,,but now ifind it hard to keep[ calm
in the last years many things happend which have shaken my life and eomtionally deeply affected me ,and my health issuffering too,im stressed ,dont sleep,often get sick,,,
some things happpened to me ,others peoples actions which affected my life,other things my own fault,my own mistakes which affected me deeply
now ifind myself sitll sinking into periods of deep depression sadness confusion
i have dealt wiht many of the issues,,,but istill feel i have lost my way in this world,sometimes idont know myself and dont know how to live my life
i joined this site,becasue i really need a place like this,as my faith has also weakened in this time
but at the same time...when i see some of the brothers and sisters here ..it makes mere reliase my weaknesses,,,ifeel ashamed..i have been a\revert for 20 years..but some here new reverts or for short time have such strong faith are so commited and trying with such effort to lead a good life
sometimes ijust feel like a failure
asometimes ifeel icant continue living where iam and the way iam
i live in an islamiccountry,,,i have a family hamdilla....
but at same time ifeel so lost
and feel im in a crossroads in my life
...........................................dont know what to do
during Ramadan itried to stay calm to focus on fasting prayer reading quran,,,but now ifind it hard to keep[ calm
in the last years many things happend which have shaken my life and eomtionally deeply affected me ,and my health issuffering too,im stressed ,dont sleep,often get sick,,,
some things happpened to me ,others peoples actions which affected my life,other things my own fault,my own mistakes which affected me deeply
now ifind myself sitll sinking into periods of deep depression sadness confusion
i have dealt wiht many of the issues,,,but istill feel i have lost my way in this world,sometimes idont know myself and dont know how to live my life
i joined this site,becasue i really need a place like this,as my faith has also weakened in this time
but at the same time...when i see some of the brothers and sisters here ..it makes mere reliase my weaknesses,,,ifeel ashamed..i have been a\revert for 20 years..but some here new reverts or for short time have such strong faith are so commited and trying with such effort to lead a good life
sometimes ijust feel like a failure
asometimes ifeel icant continue living where iam and the way iam
i live in an islamiccountry,,,i have a family hamdilla....
but at same time ifeel so lost
and feel im in a crossroads in my life
...........................................dont know what to do