Assalamu Alaikum [Peace be unto you],
Some of you might already know that I have tried to leave this forum once before. If you didn't know that, then here's the link to my previous post on this matter:
http://www.turntoislam.com/forum/showpost.php?p=133139&postcount=1
So, what's difference this time? Why did I decide to leave this forum [TurnToIslam] again?
To begin with, I'd like to re-iterate the feelings I have made in my first farewell post [found by clicking the link above]. The reasons I have stated in that post remain true.
What made me come back was one piece of news I just couldn't resist not posting on this forum. Please click on the following link to find out what it was I needed to post on TurnToIslam:
http://www.turntoislam.com/forum/showpost.php?p=151500&postcount=21
And with that post, I came back to this forum and started participating in the discussions going on in many threads. However, it has become very clear that I could no longer keep this up anymore.
In addition [and as a further explanation to] the reasons mentioned in the first link above, the following is why I really need to stop posting on TurnToIslam:
1- If you noticed the way I write my posts, you'll understand that it's time consuming. It takes a lot of concentration and effort to write a post in response to an argument or just one that presents a news story. Sometimes, I don't have an English source for what I'm trying to convey, so I have to translate it from the Arabic language.
2- I try very hard to follow up on the comments of others on my posts. And this has had some bad effects on me. Even when I'm not on the Internet, people who know me personally [in the real world] notice that I'm absent minded. What's really going on in my mind is that I'm thinking of all the comments others have said about my posts. If they're true and I'm wrong, then I'll learn from those comments. But if they're wrong, then I start thinking of how to reply to those posts, and this takes up a lot of my free time.
3- All this thinking of how to respond -mentioned in point 2 above- has actually made truly a Bluegazer ["blue" meaning sad]. Although I didn't actually choose the nickname "Bluegazer" to say that I'm a sad guy who gazes [I have a different understanding of 'Blue' that I'll keep to myself], it turned out that I really did become sad a lot of the time. It's because I feel the weight of responsibility; the responsibility to write posts about Islam accurately and mention my sources; the responsibility to respond to posts when I know how to respond....etc.
This really feels like a weight on me, and some people who know me personally have remarked that I always have this sad face and that I don't smile as much anymore.
4- I have mentioned this in the first link above, but I really need to explain this here. I really do have other responsibilities in my life. I have -sadly- neglected these duties. If this goes on further, some real damage is going to be done, and I really don't want that to happen.
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So, I hope you understand why I really have to say "farewell" again. However, this time I'm not going to completely stop posting on this thread. What I'll do Insha'Allah [Allah willing] is post whatever I feel to be beneficial for the propagation of Islam, and this time I will make it my duty not to view other posts commenting on my posts.
Please, do not feel that I do this because I'm arrogant or have this feeling that I'm always right and have nothing to learn from my brothers and sisters in Islam. I seek refuge with Allah the Almighty from such a disastrous failing as arrogance. I have -and will- always benefit from the sincere advice of others. You just have to understand that I just cannot continue going on posting the way I have been.
So, from now on, I'll post what I believe will be beneficial to educate Muslims and non Muslims about Islam, and I won't read remarks on my posts.
And even with this new arrangement, the number of my posts will fall dramatically.
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Before I end this post, I have to mention that there are instances where:
1- I have promised to reply to certain members of this forum. I'll try to fulfill my promises. But if I couldn't, then I'll be very grateful if these members could understand my situation and forgive me.
2- I have seen certain posts or topics that I really need to comment on.
And even in the above two situations, I'll just post my opinion without reading any replies to my posts.
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And here I come to the end this post. To all my brothers in Islam, it has been an overwhelming joy to be able to meet you [online] and see this love of Allah and His Messenger [peace be upon him] that you all carry in your hearts.
And to all non Muslims I have met on this forum, it has been a pleasure to be able to share with you the little knowledge of Islam that I have, and to learn from you about different matters in life.
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And with this I leave you with the greeting of Islam; Assalamu Alaikum wa Rahmatu'llaahi wa Barakaatuh [Peace be unto you and the mercy of Allah and His blessings].
Best regards,
Bluegazer
Some of you might already know that I have tried to leave this forum once before. If you didn't know that, then here's the link to my previous post on this matter:
http://www.turntoislam.com/forum/showpost.php?p=133139&postcount=1
So, what's difference this time? Why did I decide to leave this forum [TurnToIslam] again?
To begin with, I'd like to re-iterate the feelings I have made in my first farewell post [found by clicking the link above]. The reasons I have stated in that post remain true.
What made me come back was one piece of news I just couldn't resist not posting on this forum. Please click on the following link to find out what it was I needed to post on TurnToIslam:
http://www.turntoislam.com/forum/showpost.php?p=151500&postcount=21
And with that post, I came back to this forum and started participating in the discussions going on in many threads. However, it has become very clear that I could no longer keep this up anymore.
In addition [and as a further explanation to] the reasons mentioned in the first link above, the following is why I really need to stop posting on TurnToIslam:
1- If you noticed the way I write my posts, you'll understand that it's time consuming. It takes a lot of concentration and effort to write a post in response to an argument or just one that presents a news story. Sometimes, I don't have an English source for what I'm trying to convey, so I have to translate it from the Arabic language.
2- I try very hard to follow up on the comments of others on my posts. And this has had some bad effects on me. Even when I'm not on the Internet, people who know me personally [in the real world] notice that I'm absent minded. What's really going on in my mind is that I'm thinking of all the comments others have said about my posts. If they're true and I'm wrong, then I'll learn from those comments. But if they're wrong, then I start thinking of how to reply to those posts, and this takes up a lot of my free time.
3- All this thinking of how to respond -mentioned in point 2 above- has actually made truly a Bluegazer ["blue" meaning sad]. Although I didn't actually choose the nickname "Bluegazer" to say that I'm a sad guy who gazes [I have a different understanding of 'Blue' that I'll keep to myself], it turned out that I really did become sad a lot of the time. It's because I feel the weight of responsibility; the responsibility to write posts about Islam accurately and mention my sources; the responsibility to respond to posts when I know how to respond....etc.
This really feels like a weight on me, and some people who know me personally have remarked that I always have this sad face and that I don't smile as much anymore.
4- I have mentioned this in the first link above, but I really need to explain this here. I really do have other responsibilities in my life. I have -sadly- neglected these duties. If this goes on further, some real damage is going to be done, and I really don't want that to happen.
=====
So, I hope you understand why I really have to say "farewell" again. However, this time I'm not going to completely stop posting on this thread. What I'll do Insha'Allah [Allah willing] is post whatever I feel to be beneficial for the propagation of Islam, and this time I will make it my duty not to view other posts commenting on my posts.
Please, do not feel that I do this because I'm arrogant or have this feeling that I'm always right and have nothing to learn from my brothers and sisters in Islam. I seek refuge with Allah the Almighty from such a disastrous failing as arrogance. I have -and will- always benefit from the sincere advice of others. You just have to understand that I just cannot continue going on posting the way I have been.
So, from now on, I'll post what I believe will be beneficial to educate Muslims and non Muslims about Islam, and I won't read remarks on my posts.
And even with this new arrangement, the number of my posts will fall dramatically.
=====
Before I end this post, I have to mention that there are instances where:
1- I have promised to reply to certain members of this forum. I'll try to fulfill my promises. But if I couldn't, then I'll be very grateful if these members could understand my situation and forgive me.
2- I have seen certain posts or topics that I really need to comment on.
And even in the above two situations, I'll just post my opinion without reading any replies to my posts.
===
And here I come to the end this post. To all my brothers in Islam, it has been an overwhelming joy to be able to meet you [online] and see this love of Allah and His Messenger [peace be upon him] that you all carry in your hearts.
And to all non Muslims I have met on this forum, it has been a pleasure to be able to share with you the little knowledge of Islam that I have, and to learn from you about different matters in life.
===
And with this I leave you with the greeting of Islam; Assalamu Alaikum wa Rahmatu'llaahi wa Barakaatuh [Peace be unto you and the mercy of Allah and His blessings].
Best regards,
Bluegazer