Allah works in this way and I truely believe that!!!! Funny story.......I asked my husband the other day "Do you think if I told people that I think Allah speaks to me through the internet they would think I was crazy?" I really expected him to say YES and dont ever tell anyone that!!!!! Instead what he told me has stuck with me because he touched my heart when he said "If the person you told that too is Mumin they would understand and not think you are crazy at all"! When he told me that it actually brought tears to my eyes because even though I asked him the question in a joking manner I was really very serious!!! I DO honestly believe that Allah sends me messages!!!! Not just by the internet necessarily but he does use the computer as well!!!
For example that thing with the black seed oil! I swear its true I had suffered and suffered until I finally submitted myself to the fact that it is Allah's will and the very next week I found that thread on the black seed oil and the feeling inside of me was indescribable but anyone who has ever felt the power of Allah sending them a message knows EXACTLY what that feeling is like! Its something deep inside that makes you completely POSITIVE that this exact thing you are looking at is the answer to all of your prayers! Alhamdulillah!
thank you for your reply.
i've been so busy that i havent been on this site for a few weeks now.
my husband did buy the oil at the time i mentioned and i used it. it made me strong alhumdulilah. last week my daughter was in hospital for a whole week i was with her sleeping there too. she had a bad reaction / infection from a mosqeto bite. subhan allah, subhan allah, a little tinny insect can poisen us. subhan allah, how amazing is Allahs creation.
alhumdulilah im using the oil for my daughter too. she is much better.
when you said the above quote, i truely understand where your coming from. i believe this too. Allah will never leaves us, all we have to do is communicate make dua with Allah and he is there for us.
my example is at the hospital with my daughter. the 3rd day at the hospital, i went through a breakdown and cried. prior to this breakdown, a nurse came to check on my daughter aminah, i told her my aminah is complaining of sore hand. the hand where the antibiotics drip in her vein is in. i told the nurse it looks swellon, something is wrong, she said the needle must be out of the vein going through tissues. a doctor will see your daughter and re put the needle in. i got angry and told her that my daughters hand has been like this for a whole day, no one bothered to identify this, and now your telling me the needle is out of the vein, how long has the needle been out and my daughter in pain and her hand so swellon, she can get more sick. i stopped and had my breakdown the nurse left. just then my husband came in to visit, he had no idea whats going on.
he looked at me and asked whats wrong, i didnt not want to speak because i might say wrong things, i tried to be patient and told him to give me the car keys, he gave them to me and wanted to know where i was going, as i could not speak i was so upset, i did not answer, he said 'you wont be able to find where i parked the car, wait a minute let me direct you' i got more angry and continued to walk off.
when i left the hospital i cried and cried. as i went outside, i felt the direction i should walk towards and just walked and kept speaking to allah saying:
why ya Allah, why, they are little, little kids, why do you test us through them, they are innocent, they are your creation, why do you make them feel pain, isnt it haram that you make them feel pain. arent you suppose to protect them. and cried and cried fearing allah for what i am saying. i said 'im wrong in what im saying, its haram, im not meant to speak like this, but whether i speak it or not you know that is what i feel. why are you testing my patience through her, she is sick as it is and i already was patient with her the whole way saying subhan allah how a mosqeto bite can poisen human.
then i remembered children at the hosptial in Aminahs ward how sick they are and crying and said, just because people disbelieve in you, why do you punish their children and give them pain, they are little and innocent. why am i thinking all this, i love kids, i care so much for them, i hate to see them in pain. when we make dua, they are still in pain.
how are you suppose to help me, how when im asking all these questions. how do you help me, when i am not as pious as others, how are you suppose to help me if i dont do much worship because of the time ive been spending on studying instead of worshiping you but i have to study. how can you help me how. you cant help me, you'll never help, because i dont deserve it. and cried, and cried and kept walking that direction something was telling me to go. half way i stopped and thought, i'll go back and maybe turn into the next street the car isnt there.
but something said keep going. so i followed my insticts and kept crying saying how and why. and crying like a baby. i havent cried so much in ages. then i saw a car that looked like mine, i said 'is this my car, is this your guidance proof of why and how, did you really guide me to it' i said bismillah and clicked the remote key alarm thing and heard my car open, i got into my car and just CRIED, saying 'you heard me didnt you, arnt you going to punish me for questioning how and why, arnt you upset from me, why did you guide me'
this was the answers i felt straight after, yes, they were from Allah and i did speak to Allah:
when we see kids ill, and feel they are in pain, they mostly cry in need of our confort, not so much the pain because Allah makes it look like they are in terrible pain but they are not always in that pain that we assume, its mostly they are uncomfortable and in need of our love. Allah brings them closer to us with this test. so we can love them and care for them and they love us more.
if kids did not feel pain, they will not be strong. but the pain they feel is not what we think. Allah does protect them, look at the example of my son when he pulled the curtain down and the metal rail of the curtain was a mm away from his eye and his noise and under his eye is a bit scared and bleed so much. he wasnt in pain after, he was so terrified from the blood. didnt allah protect his eye? what about this: i had a box of glass drinks (date drinks) during ramadan on a table, i told my son to keep away from the table it was too heavy for me to take the box of drinks down. so i left it. my son bent the legs of the table and the box went on the floor, half of the drinks broke and my sons head was in the middle of the box, his back and head on the floor but in the box, the table over his neck i kept saying ALLAH AKBAR, ALLAH AKBAR thinking it was blood coming out of his head when it was the date drink which looks red on floor boards, when i lifted him:
HE HAD NO SCRATCHES, HE HAD NO SCARS, NO BLEEDING, WAS NOT HURT AND WAS CRYING IN FEAR AND WAS BETTER IN A FEW SECONDS after i recited quran and conforted and kissed and hugged him and as i cried he got more scared. didnt allah protect him? yes indeed allah saved him.
these i remembered in the car at time i questioned why. its like Allah was communicating back to me telling me remember, remember. and so much other examples i started to remember that i totally forgot about because it happened ages ago.
about how can Allah help me if im saying this to him: my answser was:
us human are not perfect, Allah created us to feel and think and we are intitled to ask, we have hormons, we have sense, we have feelings and are alive, we are intitled to question. He does not punish us for seeking answers but he will punish us when refusing to accept any answers from Allah.
My intention for my questions was out of love for my child, out of stress and tiredness of being in hospital for a few days with my daughter and taking care of her and that is rewards from Allah. the more i go through with my daughter, the more Allah is giving me rewards. my daughter is not in so much pain, she is just scared of what she sees and feels and in need of my confort and love, my duaghter is so close to her dad that i sometimes feel she doesnt love me, allah brang us together at the hospital to show she loves me and in need of me and no child ever not loves their mother. and to prove to my duaghter that i can take care of her more than dad. Allah used this opportunity to reward me, to bring me and my daughter closer.
this was my answers in the car. and yes, kept crying saying HOW DID YOU DO THIS? WHY CANT PEOPLE BELIEVE IN YOU? its because they dont use this communication.
sorry my reply was long, just wanted to share it with you. allah is with us and he does communicate always to me.
its not so bad!!! I think Im getting used to the taste now so its tolerable for me! Especially knowing that its working so I prefer the taste over coughing up a lung every day!!!! :lol:
