as salamoe aleikoem wa rahmatoellahi wa barakatoehoe,
I realy have no idea what to do, so Im yust going to tell my story insha allah and hop to get some advise. Please if someone can help me with something, some way any way, please, ...
Im 19 years old and converted to the Islam when I was 13 years old. I started wearing hidjaab at 14 and lived with my mu, who is not a muslim and her husband who is not a muslim. My mum got really sick and my stepdad didnt like the fact of me being muslim so he gave me the choise. I choose for my religion and soon I was homeless, ... I thought I could handle it by searching for my father who I never met before who I knew was a muslim.
I found him, but I wasnt allowed to stay with him from social services because he turned out to be a drug addict and all kind of different things.
From then on I moved from friends houses to services for children to fosterhomes, ... El hamdolileh, my religion stayed strong and I still was happy for some reason. Im now past 18 and dont get any help of social services anymore as I am a adult. So I searched my dad again and he dissapeared. I went to ask my mum and stepfather to stay with them but they will not have me in te house anymore. Social services wont help me ass they say I have to work, but I live here in Belgium and I cant find a job where I can wear hidjaab, ... And even if I found a job I dont know what to do where to live where to go.
On top of that I really want to go to a country where I can practise Islam in freedom, as niqaab and stuf are forbidden in Belgium. I yust have no support from no one and nobody helping a hand about what I should do to get my life back on tracks.
El hamdolileh, all of this made me stronger in my religion and I thank Allah swt for that. And as my love for my religion growed over the years, my desire to go away from Belgium and start over somewhere where I can get support and practise Islam as it should growed also.
I yust dont know what to do at the moment, Ive tried nearly everything I can think of, Im staying with a famili right now, but they want me to marrie somebody from there country so he can come here. So I dont know what to do anymore.
I really hope someone can give me some advise of tell me where I can go for help, ... Im in the UK right now for two weeks, my grandparents live here, but they also cant have me living here cuz they say they cant cope me being so "extreem in my religion" thats how they call it. (they are not muslims either). I love them very much and a part of me understands them that its hard for them to deal with me being a muslima, but this is a choise in my life I cannot give up. Allah swt was the only one standing by me all these years.
Can someone please help or give some advise what I should do next? Im paniking at the moment as I dont know where Im going and how Im going to live the minute I get on that plane back to Belgium....
May allah guide and forgive us all,
May allah reward you for your help,
May allah give us all the stenght,
May allah lead us to Paradise,
Amien,
salaam alekoem
Inshallah everything goes well sister, May Allah be with you.I yust wanted to say that I went to the mosque here in Lincoln today, and the man that was there gave the telephone number of his wife so i can give her a call insha allah and meet her so I can explain to her wahts going on and if she knows something to help. So ill ring her this week insha allah, and who knows, ...
May allah swt help us all and guide us, and reward you for your support.
I yust wanted to say that I went to the mosque here in Lincoln today, and the man that was there gave the telephone number of his wife so i can give her a call insha allah and meet her so I can explain to her wahts going on and if she knows something to help. So ill ring her this week insha allah, and who knows, ...
May allah swt help us all and guide us, and reward you for your support.
I yust want to say first how thankfull i am to allah swt that there are still people who care. It may not seem a lot, but all of you yust showing that you care means the world to me.
About the imaams in Belgium, I went to them before, but the problem is, some of them cant help me, as here in Belgium they seem scared of saying or doing something. Im not quite sure waht the reason is.
About marriage, Some sisters said they would try to help, and may allah swt reward them for there intentions, but they seem to be able to do nothing. I have heard from some brothers who wish to get married and ask for me to people, but they are not really practisinng in there religion.
Im in Lincoln right now, I dont know a lot of citys here, and I asked my grandparents for those big citys, but they say its very far away.
Ive heard from my grandma that there is a mosque here somewhere so insh aallah Im going try to find it, as I called the number a few times but no body picks up.
Thank you sisters for everything and may allah swt reward you for you help and caring. Masha allah, I really wished I knew moslims like this in my area.
And about going to a big city and going to the mosque to ask help, I am a bit scared going to a place where I dont know anybody and yust go without a plan. I know allah swt is by my side but its still a bit scary, thats why maybe if there are any sisters in the Uk who would yust want to go with me to a mosque they know or something, and yust give me instructions on how to get there maybe I can go with her. . .
And another thing, how do I pass my email adress to people (someone asked me on this forum?) or do I yust put it here, ... Im new to this site, so I dont know how.
As salaamoe alaikoem wa rahmatoellahi wa barakatoehoe, and thank you for being there for me, with words that give me yust that little extra strenght to keep going. May allah swt really reward you for your good hearts and give you Paradise. Amien.
and srry for my english that it isnt that good, I hope you all understand me...