Assalamu Alykum Warahmatullahe Wabrakaathuh brother.
There are two instances in which I get angry:
1.) If someone stands in my way (on purpose) to stop me from being the Muslim I want to be (I mean doing extra Ebadah or following the Sunnahs of Rasulallah (SAW), like growing a beard, eating/sleeping on the floor, going to the Masjid, staying over at the Masjid at night (with other brothers of course) so I can stay secluded by myself at night and be closer with Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta Alla, who is the only one who deserves all Praise and Gratitude, and whom I shall never ever find a loving gaurdian and Wali but him, nor will I ever love anyone else as much as him); then I just say to myself to be patient, because the matter is going to be decided; while those who I have warned (about sins to stay away from) are still active in their evils (those things that I have
repeatedly reminded them about to stop) will soon have to answer to Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta Alla for their wrongs towards me; while I will not forgive them, but it is up to my Rabbi if he wants to forgive them; and if he does not want to, then they have no one else to blame but themselves.
And then there's the other type of person that had done something bad to me. Such as maybe a little child, who I have given many gifts, candies, balloons when their sick, played with them, loved them like a big brother, but theystart to say mean things to me (infront of other people). For this instance (it happened right now (yeah, today, at this time) with my little cousin as she came over for Eid);
I just try to calm myself down a bit; listen to some Quran or some calm Pushto Jihad Nasheed and start to feel better. And then I keep on thinking over and over agian about what that someone has said; but since I understand that they're a little kid, I won't do anything mean to thme; especially when it deals with somone who's close to me and who I loved as if they were my own little sibling; but I just tell myself to not get upset over it, they're just a little kid; and when I remember those things I've done for them (what I've mentioned above), I just tell myself that, "Oh well, atleast Allah Ta Alla is pleased with you Abdul, and remember that's all what really matters," and so I start feeling a happy feeling of tranquility in my heart when I feel like that my Rabbai is pleased with me, because to me, in the end, that is all that really matters, and that is all that's really important. But anyway, I just stop talking to them and don't act all happy withthem around anymore as I use to; and then now I'm deciding to stop being so nice to them and I won't resolve to getting angry with them or being mean to them, I'll just not go and see them, play with them, show that kind of love to them (that I show to other little Muslim children, like those two little Pakistani brothers who I bought candy and ice cream for which made them start to feel so happy (which made me feel really happy), and that little Pakistani (baby) brother (he's so adorable, Mashallah, he has the cutest little eyes and face :ma
who would run around the Masjid until I caught him which would make him burst with energetic laughter :ma:. So anyway, I'll just stay away from that one someone and not talk to them or be with them again until I feel like I've gotten over what they've done to me (I just hope my Uncle doesn't pick up on my new behavior towards my cousin when he comes back from Hajj on the 17nth; but Allahu 'Atlam).
But anyway brother, I hope that I could share my personal experiance with all my dear brothers and sisters on this site; maybe it can give a brother or sister some advice, but mostly, I feel happy that I have a great family to share my stories and personal experiacnes too; may Allah Ta Alla reunite me with this beloved family of mine in Jannah, for he is able to do all things, Ameen Ya Zaal Jalaaly Wal Ekraam! And surely to my Lord belongs all praise.
Assalamu Alykum Warahmatullahe Wabrakathuh dear brothers and sisters, may Allah Ta Alla forgive you for all of your sins, reward you in Jannah by multiplying your Ajr, Rank, and Status by the 50,000s, make all of you to be the followers of the Salaf as Salih and Rasulallah (SAW), may he protect you all from the torment of this world and the Akirah, and may he give all of you a blissful, beautiful, lovely, and happy life in this Duniyah and the Akirah, Ameen.