I am a Muslim who has lost my faith. Not because I converted to another religion. And not because I decided to adopt a secular life-style to fit in. I've lost my faith, after much thinking and questioning, and finding in the end that I could not see the logic of religion at all.
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However, this is only true if you believe, not if you simply practice religion. I am unable to believe--I want to--but I can't. And I want help, because I hope that there is something I'm missing that will make me believe.
I'm unfortunately a psychological wreck. I suffer from severe anxiety and depression, as well as painful guilt, shame, and emotional imbalances. I wasn't traumatized or anything in my childhood, but I've gone through very difficult and exceptional circumstances that have eventually caused me to collapse psychologically. I am now desperate for a solution to put my life back together, whether its through faith or psychological help. I'm reluctant to get psychological help because of the fact that would be entered in my medical records, and would thus leave me with a stigma that would follow me to the rest of my life.
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assalam aleikum,
this makes so much sense, thanks to your explanation of personal self, the ayat of Allah are like clear as day in meaning.
Allow me please (Using Saheeh international translation of Quran:
Surat Taha(20) ayat 113-114:
And thus We have sent it down as an Arabic Qur’an and have diversified therein the warnings that perhaps they will avoid [sin] or it would cause them remembrance. (113)
So high [above all] is Allah, the Sovereign, the Truth. And, [O Muhammad], do not hasten with [recitation of] the Qur’an before its revelation is completed to you, and say, "
My Lord, increase me in knowledge." (114)
make prayer that Allah increase you and all of us in knowledge.
Now a little reflection of the past and glimpse of the future:
Surat Taha(20) ayat 115-128:
And We had already taken a promise from Adam before, but he forgot; and We found not in him determination. (115)
And [mention] when We said to the angels, "Prostrate to Adam," and they prostrated, except Iblees; he refused. (116)
So We said, "O Adam, indeed this is an enemy to you and to your wife. Then let him not remove you from Paradise so you would suffer. (117)
Indeed, it is [promised] for you not to be hungry therein or be unclothed. (118)
And indeed, you will not be thirsty therein or be hot from the sun." (119)
Then Satan whispered to him; he said, "O Adam, shall I direct you to the tree of eternity and possession that will not deteriorate?" (120)
And Adam and his wife ate of it, and their private parts became apparent to them, and they began to fasten over themselves from the leaves of Paradise.
And Adam disobeyed his Lord and erred. (121)
Then his Lord chose him and turned to him in forgiveness and guided [him]. (122)
Ask Allah to guide you and all of us:
[Allah] said, "Descend from Paradise - all, [your descendants] being enemies to one another. And if there should come to you guidance from Me - then whoever follows My guidance will neither go astray [in the world] nor suffer [in the Hereafter]. (123)
And whoever turns away from My remembrance - indeed, he will have a depressed life, and We will gather him on the Day of Resurrection blind." (124)
He will say, "My Lord, why have you raised me blind while I was [once] seeing?" (125)
[Allah] will say, "Thus did Our signs come to you, and you forgot them; and thus will you this Day be forgotten." (126)
And thus do We recompense he who transgressed and did not believe in the signs of his Lord. And the punishment of the Hereafter is more severe and more enduring. (127)
Then, has it not become clear to them how many generations We destroyed before them as they walk among their dwellings? Indeed in that are signs for those of intelligence. (128)
again thank you for sharing with us.
wa aleikum assalam wa rahmat Allah
I seek refuge in Allah. (Then you should desist from doing what you are in doubt about.)
stated that what we have referred to here is true. Bukhari and Muslim narrated on the authority of Abu Hurayrah (radhiyAllaahu anh) that the Messenger of Allah 
