Seeker_2601
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:salam2: brother may the peace and mercy of Allah be upon you
I read your post before, but Im not sure why i didn't reply well, after reading alot of your post I want to say something to you ... around a year or something ago I use to be really rebellious, i was not gothic but I had so much pain inside me that i wud always be angry and doing crazy things trying to compress pain, I never drank alcohol cuz no liquid could turn down the fire inside me, and i thought it was something that weak people drink. I use to do car racing, would hang out in downtown very late , I got offer from a very very wrong group to work for them but i refused cuz i didn't want a "Boss", and loud music fueled alot of things ... See im a gemini its not like i believe into those stuff but it gives me this really duel personality, I have alot of innocence on the face but so much evil inside, it made perfect so some of the really wrong jobs but i never did cuz it was not the way i roll i was a lone soul, the main problem with me was anger, I never get sad i always get mad. There was this one girl thou who i use to rreally like, she belonged to the gothic subculture, she had alot of piercing oh one thing that i really thought made her look crazy and tought was she used to wear a dog collar with spikes lol like it was crazy, but my life kinda flipped upside down when i stumbled on this forum and i came here cuz some non-muslim questioned me on islam and i didn't know wat to say so i came here to ask the question and than i just started reading post here and then after sometime i wudstay up at night watching AHmed Deedat, Zakir Naik, Yusuf estes (his conversion story was really inspiring and i really like listenning to him) ... I believe most of my anger came from the environment i was in and the music and smokeing and figthing and street racing really fueled alot of it, now I listen to islamic lectures and Quran instead of extreme loud music, and i quit street racing and all those stupid girls that wud be all over me but never gave me true happiness.
Im really glad to came to this website, maybe it can do the same for you but I hope you can find the inner peace that we are searching for, Pm me if you ever want to hook up we'll chill lol
Oh PS: i quit smoking too it was easier than i had anticipated lol i still get the cravings but i keep myself strong by remembering Allah (swt)
Just ask for forgiveness and ask God to make your path easier towards true guidance
take care bro
Haha, you sound like a man of my own heart. I find it fascinating that I've recieved so many different stories from so many different people. I've gotten messages from people begging me not to be sunni, not to be muslim in general, to not let these "mozlems" turn me from christ. I think that if people actually saw Islam, and actually saw their Christianity for what it really is, they would declare shahada in an instant and the only reason I have yet to do so is my struggle to find God in general. When i'm sure he's absolutly real, I'll make my declaration on the spot. Here's hoping it wont take to long.
Thanks for the support everyone,
-B