As'salam Wa'alaikum Brother/Sister,
Greetings! Mash'Allah, you people are doing absolutely a fabulous job,
helping new muslims dwell soundly in Islam! I pray to Allah the almighty
that may he reward all you good people, and equally the ummah including me.
I am a new muslim and alhamdullilah I embraced Islam last year! I found
email is the best way to get an answer to this piece of story of mine!
My journey started this way, the time when I was young and free from social
burdens and love, I saw a newspaper advertisement where I found a nice
arabic script 'la ilaha il'Allah, Muhamaduur Rasool Ullah' and I mugged it
so hard that I started telling all my friends that hey, see I learnt
Arabic, and they took it cool! They use to ask me repeat and use to tell me
recite the same again and again to them I proudly I use to, indeed they
liked it too I guess!
Anyways, one day I met a female friend through online chat, though never
knew that, this sweet girl will change my whole life forever! Often young,
people commit mistakes; though this one, I wont recall as a mistake because
I knew something god has planned for me, to let it roll into me ! I fall in
love within a month of conversation (Online) with this girl and vice versa!
We shared our numbers and started talking through phone and days kept on
passing us by, like a sweet lullaby and 3 year's passed! THough by this
time I decided to embrace Islam to ease the trouble path to face the future
proudly and Alhamdullilah the very next day I embraced in front of 2 muslim
being reciting the holy shahada as loud as I can! I didnt told her the
same, thought that one day I am going to give her this surprise! But alas,
never knew my luck and dreams will get shattered!
She called me and told me that, she decided to move out from this
relationship because her parents will never going to accept a kufur and
apart from that she dont have the courage at all to fight! I accepted, that
she took a good decision by not falling further more for a kufur rather
decided to devote more into what Allah had nourished for her! She stopped
calling me! From last year itself and Allah Witnessed, what I encountered
was really something I wasnt prepared! I learnt Salaat and become more
devoted to Allah, keeping 15 days fast out of 30 in the month of Ramazan,
in presence of my parents without letting them know, praying daily and
celebrated Eid, alone offcourse without any sheer and kheer ! I was
practically feeling as if to complete the whole of Quran which I did,
completing alhamdullilah almost half of Quran (In English)! I was really
crying that what would be the possible way I can win her back? I called her
dad and told everything about our relationship but I was bit crazy I guess,
I told about my reversion into muslim from Hindu, and honestly he took it
cool but wasnt ready to say anything through phone I beleive; rather end up
telling me that, marriage is a huge decision which requires proper
permission from relatives and asked me what you do? what was your previous
name and told me to meet him in his town but at this young age, alone, 150
KM away from the city, how come I am going to meet him? That will be next
to impossible! And finally decided to let him know that I cant come, but
alas, he switched off forever the number he use to carry!
I circumcized without letting my parents about the same; even they dont
know yet that I am a muslim now! But anyways, time passed and I have done
Istikhaara through Tasbeeh to see what the results come for this
relationship and Alahmdullilah it came perfect followed by a dream from
Omnipotent (Allah witnessed) May he curse me, if I am saying wrong, the
dream was so beautiful that even a word cannot describe the same, I only
heard his voice in hindi where he said that 'Chahe Koi bhi tufaan kyu naa
aajaye, woh tumhari hi rehgi' (No matter what natural catstrophe sorround
you and abide you, she'll be your's by every means) and the very next day I
was so happy, Alhamdullilah, I was really so happy that even now also I am
crying! The shaitaan cant mask and act like god even in my dreams at all
and I know it was a positive dream! You may say I am a dreamer, but I am
not the only one, and indeed Allah witneesed, I swear by him, it was a true
and positive dream (I pray may it last forever) Amen!
Anyways, right after 7 days of this dream, she called me after 3 months and
we started communicating as a friend and I took the same as a good omen!
Though she was abiding her feelings as she thought maybe that, again
falling in love; with him can land her in trouble! But once again, she
left, 10 days got passed by now, I havent received any of her call though I
am prepared for pain! I am 19 and she is too and I beleive by 23-25, she'll
get marry to someone good! I have everything to give her, Alhamdullilah by
now I started earning what no one can earn at this age, Halaal! Though
money is not everything I know, I have so much of love stored for her, only
Allah knows best! In short, have so much of love stored right in my
broken heart that I can feed 20 Million who are desperate need for love' My
life, my louv is this girl! I want her back, I cant see that she's going to
be with some other man later in life, I sacrificed so much of my life,
leaving everybody just to roll Islamically! I dont want to leave Islam at
all, I also want to celebrate Eid-Ul-Fitr, I also want to go to Hajj and
every other beautiful sacred places like you. like other born muslim! I
want a muslim family ... I want her back!
How will I confess my love to this world, to the people of this world, to
her dad, her parents, her vast family, I am so alone! My parents will never
gonna support me and I am dead sure, rather they will curse me! I want to
meet her dad personally to express my feelings for this girl? How I am
going to make him understand and embolden that I am a muslim now and I love
your daughter! I am also like him! I am also having a true heart like him
for her, for every people, I have no idea what will happen by the time when
everything will finish! Insh'Allah I am sure if she get a chance to marry
me, she will, my heart says, she just abide her feelings just because of
parental pressure! Is my only fault that I born as a kufur?
Oh my blessed and pious brother, Am I eligible to marry her ? I will be
glad if you advice me how to fight for my love, for this girl, for my iman!
Will they consider me for her? What question her dad can ask me? So many
questions, but I know you people are having less time and busy schedule but
I will wait for your answer patiently! As your answer will be enough for me
to win her back! They are 7 and I am only 1 individual to represnt myself
that also alone! Will I able to celebrate Eid?
Kindly help me ...
Loving Salaam
Omar
Greetings! Mash'Allah, you people are doing absolutely a fabulous job,
helping new muslims dwell soundly in Islam! I pray to Allah the almighty
that may he reward all you good people, and equally the ummah including me.
I am a new muslim and alhamdullilah I embraced Islam last year! I found
email is the best way to get an answer to this piece of story of mine!
My journey started this way, the time when I was young and free from social
burdens and love, I saw a newspaper advertisement where I found a nice
arabic script 'la ilaha il'Allah, Muhamaduur Rasool Ullah' and I mugged it
so hard that I started telling all my friends that hey, see I learnt
Arabic, and they took it cool! They use to ask me repeat and use to tell me
recite the same again and again to them I proudly I use to, indeed they
liked it too I guess!
Anyways, one day I met a female friend through online chat, though never
knew that, this sweet girl will change my whole life forever! Often young,
people commit mistakes; though this one, I wont recall as a mistake because
I knew something god has planned for me, to let it roll into me ! I fall in
love within a month of conversation (Online) with this girl and vice versa!
We shared our numbers and started talking through phone and days kept on
passing us by, like a sweet lullaby and 3 year's passed! THough by this
time I decided to embrace Islam to ease the trouble path to face the future
proudly and Alhamdullilah the very next day I embraced in front of 2 muslim
being reciting the holy shahada as loud as I can! I didnt told her the
same, thought that one day I am going to give her this surprise! But alas,
never knew my luck and dreams will get shattered!
She called me and told me that, she decided to move out from this
relationship because her parents will never going to accept a kufur and
apart from that she dont have the courage at all to fight! I accepted, that
she took a good decision by not falling further more for a kufur rather
decided to devote more into what Allah had nourished for her! She stopped
calling me! From last year itself and Allah Witnessed, what I encountered
was really something I wasnt prepared! I learnt Salaat and become more
devoted to Allah, keeping 15 days fast out of 30 in the month of Ramazan,
in presence of my parents without letting them know, praying daily and
celebrated Eid, alone offcourse without any sheer and kheer ! I was
practically feeling as if to complete the whole of Quran which I did,
completing alhamdullilah almost half of Quran (In English)! I was really
crying that what would be the possible way I can win her back? I called her
dad and told everything about our relationship but I was bit crazy I guess,
I told about my reversion into muslim from Hindu, and honestly he took it
cool but wasnt ready to say anything through phone I beleive; rather end up
telling me that, marriage is a huge decision which requires proper
permission from relatives and asked me what you do? what was your previous
name and told me to meet him in his town but at this young age, alone, 150
KM away from the city, how come I am going to meet him? That will be next
to impossible! And finally decided to let him know that I cant come, but
alas, he switched off forever the number he use to carry!
I circumcized without letting my parents about the same; even they dont
know yet that I am a muslim now! But anyways, time passed and I have done
Istikhaara through Tasbeeh to see what the results come for this
relationship and Alahmdullilah it came perfect followed by a dream from
Omnipotent (Allah witnessed) May he curse me, if I am saying wrong, the
dream was so beautiful that even a word cannot describe the same, I only
heard his voice in hindi where he said that 'Chahe Koi bhi tufaan kyu naa
aajaye, woh tumhari hi rehgi' (No matter what natural catstrophe sorround
you and abide you, she'll be your's by every means) and the very next day I
was so happy, Alhamdullilah, I was really so happy that even now also I am
crying! The shaitaan cant mask and act like god even in my dreams at all
and I know it was a positive dream! You may say I am a dreamer, but I am
not the only one, and indeed Allah witneesed, I swear by him, it was a true
and positive dream (I pray may it last forever) Amen!
Anyways, right after 7 days of this dream, she called me after 3 months and
we started communicating as a friend and I took the same as a good omen!
Though she was abiding her feelings as she thought maybe that, again
falling in love; with him can land her in trouble! But once again, she
left, 10 days got passed by now, I havent received any of her call though I
am prepared for pain! I am 19 and she is too and I beleive by 23-25, she'll
get marry to someone good! I have everything to give her, Alhamdullilah by
now I started earning what no one can earn at this age, Halaal! Though
money is not everything I know, I have so much of love stored for her, only
Allah knows best! In short, have so much of love stored right in my
broken heart that I can feed 20 Million who are desperate need for love' My
life, my louv is this girl! I want her back, I cant see that she's going to
be with some other man later in life, I sacrificed so much of my life,
leaving everybody just to roll Islamically! I dont want to leave Islam at
all, I also want to celebrate Eid-Ul-Fitr, I also want to go to Hajj and
every other beautiful sacred places like you. like other born muslim! I
want a muslim family ... I want her back!
How will I confess my love to this world, to the people of this world, to
her dad, her parents, her vast family, I am so alone! My parents will never
gonna support me and I am dead sure, rather they will curse me! I want to
meet her dad personally to express my feelings for this girl? How I am
going to make him understand and embolden that I am a muslim now and I love
your daughter! I am also like him! I am also having a true heart like him
for her, for every people, I have no idea what will happen by the time when
everything will finish! Insh'Allah I am sure if she get a chance to marry
me, she will, my heart says, she just abide her feelings just because of
parental pressure! Is my only fault that I born as a kufur?
Oh my blessed and pious brother, Am I eligible to marry her ? I will be
glad if you advice me how to fight for my love, for this girl, for my iman!
Will they consider me for her? What question her dad can ask me? So many
questions, but I know you people are having less time and busy schedule but
I will wait for your answer patiently! As your answer will be enough for me
to win her back! They are 7 and I am only 1 individual to represnt myself
that also alone! Will I able to celebrate Eid?
Kindly help me ...
Loving Salaam
Omar