Asja
Pearl of Islaam
Assalamu Allaicomu Wa rahmatullah Wa barakathu dear brothers and sisters.
May you all be in the best state fo heath and faith Inshallah.
Bismillahirhamnirahim(In the name of Allah,The most Mercyfull,The most Compassionate)
Dear brothers and sisters the reason of my thread is to say that I really have spend nice time here and when i joined on this site I was so happy for knowing that I will be on one palce with all my brothers and sisters in Islaam and happy to learn more about Islaam,share my knowlodge and increase my iman.
And lately time it happend some things here that has hurted me so much,and now when I am writeing my heart is hurting me so much.Becasue of some things I feel like I do not belong here,and that I have done something wrong,that for my questions I am going against Allahs Low.The reason for some my question was that my mind could understnad some things but not my heart,and some things are hurting me so much.
I feel like something is my fault and Allah knows me the best.
It is not really to handle when someone tells you that you are going agaisnt Allahs Low,and I only wanted that Allah be pleased me,and it is making me so sad this words because I might think that Allah subhan we teal is not pleased with me,and I can not handle that.
It is not easy that when you call a saalam to your brother/sister and he does not answer you on saalam or tell you only "hello" like you are not a Muslimah.
It is not easy when your brothers and sisters tells you "we are going to decide about you",Ya Allah.
And it happen a case with brother Moderator who said to me some words,which made me feel like I done something wrong,and after that I felt a gulity like I done something wrong towerd my brother in Islaam,and towerd Allah. I can not handle that and it is hurting me so much.!!!!!! If I did,may Allah forgive me.
After some words,when i come on the site I feel like I do not belong here,and it is bringing tears in my eyes becasue I love so much all brothers and sisters in Islaam,and only thing waht I do is praiyng for them,I do not pray for my selfe almost never but always for my brothers and sisters,only now I need to ask of Alah forgivness becasue after some words I feel like I done something wrong to Islaam, to Allah,and to my brothers and sisters.
I am too much sensitive ,and that is why I can not handle some things.They are making me too much sad some words who were so harsh.
I do not want that you think that I have put my thread to atract attention on my selfe.........It is only easy to put a words on paper with a hope that someone will understand and mkae a dua for you.
I hope Inshallah someone will understand that I do not understand.:tti_sister:
I need to take a some break and take a rest Inshallah........................
Please forgive me brothers and sisters if I hurt you with something,and may Allah forgive me and too all Muslims.:tti_sister::tti_sister::tti_sister:
May Allah bless you and reword you for your love to Islaam,Allah and His RasullAllah.
May Allah bless you all,and I love you all for the sake of Allah.
Wa Allaicomu Sallam Wa rahmatullah Wa Barakathu
Your sister in Islaam,Asja