Read the Quran that's where all the answers are...
:salam2: Brother,
Allah put u in this earth simply to worship HIM. however, the choice is u'rs since ALLAH (SWT) gave u that freewill to obey HIM or otherwise.
refelect on these verses and re-evaluate u'r position on whether u want to please u'r creator or HIS creations.
1. "But those who reject Faith after they accepted it, and then go on adding to their defiance of Faith,- never will their repentance be accepted; for they are those who have (of set purpose) gone astray."(3:90)
2. "On the Day when some faces will be (lit up with) white, and some faces will be (in the gloom of) black: To those whose faces will be black, (will be said): "Did ye reject Faith after accepting it? Taste then the penalty for rejecting Faith."(3:106)
about our beloved prophet (pbuh), this is how ALLAH descriped him;
3. "Ye have indeed in the Apostle of Allah a beautiful pattern (of conduct) for any one whose hope is in Allah and the Final Day, and who engages much in the Praise of Allah."(33:21)
this is the final worning to human/jinn kind:
4. "If only thou couldst see when the guilty ones will bend low their heads before their Lord, (saying
"Our Lord! We have seen and we have heard: Now then send us back (to the world): we will work righteousness: for we do indeed (now) believe."(32:12)
this is verse answers about u'r so called "Islam violent"
5. "On that account: We ordained for the Children of Israel that if any one slew a person - unless it be for murder or for spreading mischief in the land - it would be as if he slew the whole people: and if any one saved a life, it would be as if he saved the life of the whole people. Then although there came to them Our apostles with clear signs, yet, even after that, many of them continued to commit excesses in the land. "(5:32)
6. "O ye who believe! Take not into your intimacy those outside your ranks: They will not fail to corrupt you. They only desire your ruin: Rank hatred has already appeared from their mouths: What their hearts conceal is far worse. We have made plain to you the Signs, if ye have wisdom."(3:118)
to sum up, do research and dig deeper about the Quran and specially prophet Mohammed (pbuh) before commiting a sin.
may ALLAH (SWT) guide us all to the straight path.
be consistant...