Wannabemuslim
Junior Member
:salam2: im not kidding, i feel crazy, yet i kind of inside feel that its not me, but the ummah thats crazy. i know thats haram, but im just saying things straight, like i should. Everywhere i go i find hateful muslims, i go to the shia forums, theres something they strongly dislike about me, i go to sunni forums theres things they strongly dislike about me, its getting to the point that i think that things are exagerated and twisted unfairly to his belief if a post is written by a muslim brother.astafurrilah, if i said anything wrong but please dont shoot the messenger Sadly i get more help in staying halal from non-muslims than i ever got from the muslim ummah,and the only muslims that i feel i could ever talk to or get along with are the "westernized muslims",and i cant feel 100% l comfortable in that area. to be fair i havnt experienced the muslim community away from the internet,(besides a majid filled arabs) i pray its better in the real world.its hard for me to sympathise for others im finding,
they have so little patients and faith for the muslim youth, i dont blame them, but i dont think the muslims have made me a better person, rather islam made me a better person. when i read the quran, at least to me it seems flexible, but then we have all these hadiths, thats when the stress comes in for me. hadiths like the 73 sects going to hell fire kind of put me off.chances are im going to hell fire, im not a saint, im a 14 year old boy,all my friends are non muslims, and alot of my friends talk about completly haram, from weed to girls they find attractive ect. thats uncomfortable. and whenever i feel like i found some source of inspiration to get past these problems the muslims, though having good intentions come in and take that down. i can see people here getting mad at me . But according to muslims: reading most books is haram, photography haram, paintings haram, acting is haram, rythem and poetry is haram and those are the main things i find my self excelling in, my thinking is leaned on the creative rather than thinking in steps (random i know). please if theres anyone who understands what im talking about please post or pm, if you dont refrain please. i just needed to get things off my mind, even though its probably not healthy for me to post here.
they have so little patients and faith for the muslim youth, i dont blame them, but i dont think the muslims have made me a better person, rather islam made me a better person. when i read the quran, at least to me it seems flexible, but then we have all these hadiths, thats when the stress comes in for me. hadiths like the 73 sects going to hell fire kind of put me off.chances are im going to hell fire, im not a saint, im a 14 year old boy,all my friends are non muslims, and alot of my friends talk about completly haram, from weed to girls they find attractive ect. thats uncomfortable. and whenever i feel like i found some source of inspiration to get past these problems the muslims, though having good intentions come in and take that down. i can see people here getting mad at me . But according to muslims: reading most books is haram, photography haram, paintings haram, acting is haram, rythem and poetry is haram and those are the main things i find my self excelling in, my thinking is leaned on the creative rather than thinking in steps (random i know). please if theres anyone who understands what im talking about please post or pm, if you dont refrain please. i just needed to get things off my mind, even though its probably not healthy for me to post here.