muslima2010
New Member
I feel like a disappointment to my magnificent lord.. I have been a horrible servant to him.. I dont worship and obey him the way he deserves to be obeyed.. I am completely disappointed and angry with myself.. I seem to be doing the same bad things over and over again.. I tell myself this is going to be the last time and i still do it.. I feel like the shaitan has gotten the best of me.. He seems to know how to trap me into doing sinful acts and im so tired of doing it.. I want to stop sooooo bad but seem to always go back to it.. I have let my lord down.. I ask Allah for forgiveness everytime because i know what i did was wrong.. I feel like sooner or later my forgivness might not be answered because it keeps happening over and over and over again.. I wont be worth it.. I am such a bad muslim.. I know so much and dont act upon it.. Just several months ago i felt my iman was rising but now i feel it is only declining.. Oh Allah please forgive me.. Please brothers and sisters pray for me.. make dua for me.. I dont want to be among the losers on judgment day.. I feel like a loser now.. I thank Allah everyday because i know he still hasn't given up on me.. He still reminds me and i still regret which i take as a good sign.. Forgive me ya rahman.. Help me be stronger than my tempations.. Help me to be a slave that worships you the way you deserve to be worshipped..